Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Tagged: My Version

Real Name : See Tho Wai Siong
Nickname : Audrey, Kaori-chan, Siong, Ctho, Ju-On(yeah, i admit it...but it doesn't mean that I like it!)
Married : Nope
Male/Female : 30% Woman, 40% Girl, 30% Tomboy=undefined gender
High School : SMK Bandar Tun Hussein Onn 2
Short/ Long Hair : short long hair=medium hair loh~
Are u a healthy freak : Yeah..kinda. Got it from my mum.
Height : 170cm..which makes me 5ft6?
Do u have a crush on someone? : Nope...not now.
Do u like yourself : Like, duh!
Piercings : 3 on each ear
Righty of lefty : Righty

Surgery : At birth?
Piercing : Standard 1...on my ear lobe
Person u see in the morning : See Tho Wai Siong
Award : Preschool Sports Award...silver trophy, btw.. ^^
Sport you joined : Shopping!
Pet : A german spitz named June that's gonna kick the bucket soon.
Vacation : international or domestic? If domestic-Muar, Johor-I guess. International would be Hong Kong
Concert : Westlife! I still have their poster on my wall! lolx~
First crush : My standard 1 ketua kelas(1 Cempaka)

Eating: nothing
Drinking: nothing
I'm about to : go hit the hay

Your future...
Want kids : Yeah...2 kids of my own and adopt more kids from around the world!!
Want to get married: If got candidate ma got lo...if dun haf ma dun haf lo~
Careers in mind: Psychologist

Which is better?
Lips or eyes?: Eyes...after all, they're the windows to our souls.
Hugs or kisses: Both la..not come together wan meh?
Shorter or taller?: For me, neither coz I'm tall enough. For my guy, taller la of coz...got sense of security ma~
Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous with a tiny hint of romantic coz too much romance makes me wanna hurl.
Sensitive or loud: A little of both
Troublemaker or hesitant?: Troublemaker

Have u ever....
Kissed a stranger?: What do u mean? Just kiss some random person on the street? Eww..no!
Drank bubbles: If u mean non-alcoholic, just 2 days ago. If alcoholic, I'm planning to do it in after SPM.
Lost glasses/contacts: Yes! Plenty of times! ^^
Ran away from home: No...I'm a daddy's girl..^^
liked someone younger: I think so..
liked someone older: Duh~
Broke someone's heart: Yeah
Cried when someone died: Yeah

Do u believe in...
Yourself?: Yes...50%
Miracles: Yes...anything can happen
Heaven: Yeah...duh~
Santa Claus: Yes...embarassingly up until I was 8
Magic: Black Magic, yes. But I don't practice it, k?
Angels: Yup

Answer truthfully...
Is there someone you want to be with right now?: YEAH!!
Do u believe in God?: Of course..after all, who would we be without God? BTW, even Satan believes in God...

Tag 5 people:
Peachy Ng, Xin, Alep, Sal & Sheng

Monday, April 28, 2008


I had a weird dream last night. It was really long and had a lot of stuff in it but like all dreams, I forgot most of it. However, what stuck in my mind until now and possibly for the rest of my life was a short scene where Wan and Sin Yi were telling me something. Yes, Wan as in Ridzwan and Sin Yi as in Tan Sin Yi. It was really weird and shocking but it was also very true.

The dream went like this;
Wan and Sin Yi were sitiing at a desk facing each other in class. I joined in by sitting beside Sin Yi and tried to start a conversation. Then, they stopped talking altogether and just sat there, looking uncomfortable. I asked them what was the matter and why are they evading me. Then the truth slapped my face like a car ran over me. Wan told me that it's not good to talk behind people's back and gossiping. He said it like he was advising me and not accusing me or anything. Although they didn't say that they were afraid I would talk bad about them, I could sense it by the way they acted. Sin Yi was just aggreeing with what Wan said all the time. I didn't say anything or comment but I felt shocked and ashamed. The weird part was that I wan't really all that close with Wan and hearing him saying something like this does not happen in reality.

When I woke up, the whole scene kept repeating in my head and I knew at once that God is trying to tell me to stop talking behind people's back and gossiping!! Ironic enough, just two days before, I went to SIB for Pastor Victor's talk and there were two words pasted on the wall, 'No Gossiping'. And this morning, during worship service, we were singing Still and I just couldn't take it anymore and cried out midway of singing. I just knew that He talked to me. The week before, when Pastor Serena did an alter-call for repentance, I went out. I wanted to repent but I knew that I hadn't surrendered to God fully. I guess that's why God talked to me through this dream.

If you don't already know, just last month, I hurt a friend which is Sin Yi (how ironic) by talking behind her back. I almost ruined our friendship but managed to fix it. Man, am I that blurr and ignorant? I mean, after the incident with Sin Yi, the alter-call, I stil don't listen to God and repent!! I have got to stop talking behind people's back and gossiping!! No matter how frequent, how bad it is. Even if I didn't start it, I have to stop!

p/s: to those who I hurt by gossiping, I am really sorry and I will repent simply because I want to and I have been asked by God to do so. If you see, hear or feel that I'm gossiping or talking behind someone's back, please, kindly tell me to stop right then and walk away from it! Thank you...


I attended MSG last Friday and Saturday and I had to say I was reluctant at first, but eventually went anyway coz my sis signed me up. It turned out to be the best weekend I had! BTW, MSG stands for Ministering Spiritual Gifts and not Ajinomoto. Pastor Serena Shim was the speaker
The whole programme was based on 1 Cor 12-14 which talks bout Spiritual Gifts. There are 9 gifts altogether that are given by God through manifestation of the Spirit. On Friday night, we were learning how to speak in tongues. Well, not all were learning coz most of us already knew. But it was more like strengthening of the tongues. Basically, speaking in tongues is the ability to communicate with God in a language only He knows. When speaking, the presence of God would fill around us and we wouldn't be speaking, but the Holy Spirit in us would be speaking.

At the beginning when I learned to speak in tongues, I just kinda followed everyone else and I got a hang of it. I didn't know if I'm doing it right until I attended MSG. I learned that I have to speak really loud and clear continuosly. When you first start, you keep taking deep breaths coz you're afraid you don't get enough air to speak. Eventually, you just know you can do it! It has a rather odd feeling at first...like you're spirit is high and something in you is growing and your heart feels like it's beating faster but it's not. After a while, when the presence of the Lord is around you, you get a feeling in your gut that grows out and about. It's just an amazing feeling that mere words can't explain!!

After that, we had a session where Pastor Serena taught us how to prophecy. It basically means forthtelling but it also means foretelling in the Old Testement. She gave each of us papers and asked us to write sentences beginning with 'The Lord says....' We had to pray in tongues together and close our eyes and feel what God is trying to tell us. Then, without thinking, we have to write down what comes into our mind. At first, we had to prophecy for ourselves, then we move on to prophecy for other people and on Saturday, we had to prophecy for groups!! The scariest part is that you don't know if it's true and you just blabber out anything that comes into your mind. The final prophecy was done in a group where there were two circles, one in another. It works when the outer circle closes their eyes while the inner circle moves from one person to another. It's hard to explain but frankly, we have to prophecy to another person in front of you without knowing who it is!! On Saturday, I spent the whole day there, prophecying and during the night, I felt so happy deep inside that I never felt before! It's like, the happiest moment of my life that I wanna cry tears of joy! I'm guessing it's coz I felt the presence of God.

On Sunday, there was a last session but I couldn't go coz there was a Sejarah seminar going on. I heard from my sis that it was the best one yet coz they sung from the Bible loudly with instruments. The amazing part is that they experienced the presence of Satan when they sung warfare songs and finaly triumphed over it. Finally, after hours, all of them experienced the glory of God and had an image where they were marching towards God and they were singing and looking at God!! At the end of it all, Pastor Serena prophecied on each of them and I wasn't there!! Aww...what a waste!

To sum it all up, I learned a lot and I didn't even know that I had this gift in me. Like I said, it's the best weekend I had!

p/s: still have to practice speaking in tongues and prophecying everyday ^^

Friday, April 18, 2008

Tagged: Perintah Sakyou-dono yang suke ckp 'fai wa'

The Hurt Survey!!~

Would you kiss the last person you kissed, again?
of course la! my mother wo...

Have you told anyone you'd marry them?
no, not that i can remember.
Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
yes..only once and I cried bout it.

Have you ever made a bf/gf cry?
no... never had a bf or a gf. unless my besties count as gfs, then yes.
Are you happier single or in a relationship?
tell u adi lo...never in a relationship before le...but i tink i'll be much happier being single coz i dun haf time for bf.
Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?
Have you ever had your heart broken?
yes...but not from being in a relationship.
Have you ever broken someone else's heart?
maybe, maybe not.
Do you still talk to your ex/es?
how many times I've gotta say? no relationship=no ex or exes loh~
Last time you kissed someone?
dunno...how i noe la? but very long adi la...i tink it was with my mum or dad.
If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
like, duh!! time is the most precious thing on earth(for me, anyway)
Do you think you are a good bf/gf?

haiz...'fai wa'
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Have u ever liked anyone else's bf/gf?
dunno..never really thought deeply bout it.
Like anyone right now?
of course le...but not in the way u tink it is.
Does that person like you back?
yesh..and i'm 100% sure bout it! :D
What are you going to do tonight?
go out with my sis.
How do you feel right now?
pretty stressed-out over h/w and SPM.
Have you ever been kissed upside-down?
no...why? is it fun? if it is, i dun mind trying! ;P
What would you like to say to one person on your mind?
I love you.

I'm tagging: Hige, Syaoran & Carmen

Sunday, April 13, 2008


Guess what? I've just been to cicakland last week! It wasn't a nice experience. I got attacked by 3 cicaks! Okay...we(the moral students) were following Pn.Sam(our moral teacher) to snap photos for our kerja kursus Moral. Anyway, we went to this padang behind the school buildings to take photos coz the pix must be bout alam sekitar. I got a wonderful(not so wonderful now) idea to hold some of the strings hanging from a tree and pretend to clean up the padang. Haizz...I know, not ikhlas...but what to do? Must get A1 for Moral ma...so must do everything necessary lo.
Okay, while I was holding up the strings and passed them to my friends, I picked up the last bundle of strings and felt something sticky and wet on my hand. Guess what it is? Bingo! It was a cicak!! I know, eww...but that wasn't even the worst part! Wait till the end of the story. So, I did any girl would do when we touch anything disgusting, SCREAM! Yes, this applies to tomboys like me too. I dunno what happened to my friends, but the next thing I know is that they were screaming with me..lolx! Moving on...I picked up the same bundle of strings and another cicak attacked me!! But luckily, this one kesiankan me coz when I screamed(again), it jumped off and saved me from getting a heart attack. The funny thing is that my friends screamed with me-again! Yeah, LMAO.
Once kena attack, okay la...normal. But three times!? Definately not normal! Yes...I repeat, I got attacked by cicaks three times! The third attack was the worst of the worst! After all the commotion, we walked back to class while talking bout our unpleasant experience all the way. Apparently, my day wasn't bad and packed full of surprises enough already coz Kyeng screamed for the third time that day and very loudly at that-in front of the school office! As expected, everyone followed suit. I didn't scream at first, then when Kyeng pointed her finger at my skirt, the colour drained from my face and I freaked out. I hopped around even more when she said that there's a cicak attached to my skirt! I kept jumping and waved around my skirt pointlessly. Peach tried to shake it off my skirt but didn't dare to touch it. But it wouldn't get off!! Luckily for me, Devan was there(bless him) and he helped me flick it off... Before it ran away, the thing didn't forget to leave me a gift coz it left its still moving tail behind. Well, its probably afraid of the constant ear-piercing shrieks by me and my fellow classmates.
After this experience, I dare not come near any reptiles...big or small. BTW, you're probably asking why am I attaching a Cicakman pix on this post. Well, the Americans have Superman, Batman and Spiderman and Malaysian have Cicakman. I was just wondering, if they wanna create a superhero to compete with the Westerns, why choose cicak? At least Batman is..well, based on bat. Bats are not gross like cicaks. I just wanna say to the creators of Cicakman to please create a superhero that is heroic and not gross like how cicaks are.