Monday, January 19, 2009


1) Do you think you’re hot?
No. I'm not that shallow!

2) Upload your favorite picture.

3) Why do you like that picture?
The colours are amazing! I can see Matt 18:3 coming to life.

4) When was the last time you ate pizza?
Last year..?

5) The last song you listen to?
Tonight, Tonight, Tonight by The Beat Crusaders

6) What are you doing right now besides this?
Watching Hana Yori Dango Returns

7) What name you would prefer besides yours?

8) People to tag.

9) Who is number one?
My high school junior

10) Number three is having a relationship with?
His pizzas at Domino's

11) Say something about number five?
Fun, loud and crazy

12) How about number four?
Currently suffering at NS!

13) Who is number two?
My childhood friend

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Don’t Settle for Happiness; Aim for Joy

“Whatever happens, dear brothers and sisters, may the Lord give you joy …” Philippians 3:1 (NLT)
Rick Warren's devotional on happiness recently reminded me of a time when I could see the difference between happiness and joy. They may seem similar but once you've experienced joy, you're not going back for mere happiness.
It was last year...when I was busy preparing for SPM that I know what pure joy really is. I attended the MSG meeting at CEFC and I learned that I can harvest spiritual gifts. We spoke in tongues throughout the program and really strengthened it. At the end of the first day, I really felt at the bottom of my very soul (not being dramatic) that I was truly and fully experiencing's not happiness, that's for sure. It's of a different kind of feeling from what I normally feel when I get a new book, or I get praised for my grades or even when I receive a gift. Because I know deep down inside, no matter how happy I am when I experience worldy things, it won't last. But godly things....last for eternity. I was glowing that's like I viewed the world with a different set of eyes. I wanted to laugh, smile, cry tears of joy and tell the world of the good news because I think everyone deserves to experience this joy that I had.
Do you wake up everyday thinking, what's my goal today? What things can I look forward to today, to keep my life meaningful each day? I did...and I still do. It's hard not to think of worldly things, but we've got to try because at the end of the day, only godly things last through eternity. Sure, we graduate, get a good job, get married, achieve our greatest ambition...then what? Is it all there is to life? This routine...this repetition that makes you say deja vu over and over again, is not all life has got to offer, right? If it is, why are we working so hard for? It's not like we can bring all our wealth, our lovers to the afterlife. That's when God comes into the picture. He offers what we need, not what we want. Every single one of us has got a void in our soul that only He can fill. Humans have tried to fill that vacuum with lovers, money, prestige..anything you can think of. But it never works..cos only one key can open that door to a greater joy than we've ever experienced.
I just want to share with you guys what I had. This is not some godly talk...this is just my testimony of God's joy. It's hard to talk about God these days...people just shut you out or worse, call you names. I don't have a lot of close friends that know what I'm talking about. Sometimes, I want to share with them this joy but it's hard to walk to a bunch of friends with different beliefs. I think it's easier for them to accept me when I laugh at jokes than when I'm talking about God. I don't feel bad about it, because I was once like that. I shunned out anything that brings me out of my comfort zone. It's just easier that way. But honestly, you can't say no to God when you know of the truth.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009


Sesiapa yang kena tag, kena tulis 10 sesuatu berkenaan orang yang meng'tag' dia's aki-chan
i. cute
ii. lembik...tapi akan attack balik jika perlu
iii. sangat cukup 'yi hei'
iv. suka lelaki yang ada ciri2 perempuan
v. suka cabaran
vi. masih innocent dalam percintaan lelaki-perempuan(spt aku)
vii. anime fan
viii. pembaca setia
ix. mudah kena sunburn
x. ada hp baru yang aku akan cuba memusnahkan

Orang yang kena tag kena tulis 10 perkara sesuatu pasal diri mereka

i. pembaca setia jgk(fantasy, chick-lit, thriller)
ii. BSB fan
iii. Narnia fan
iv. William Moseley fan
v. foodie(Chinese, Japanese, Italian)
vi. suka melukis
vii. introvert kalau dengan orang yang tak kenal dan extrovert kalau dengan kawan2
viii. malas! suka tido berjam2
ix. mempunyai ramai kawan setia
x. suka mengarah jika keadaan memerlukannya

I'm a kid again

Behold! I'm officially an American Degree Transfer(Liberal Arts) majoring in Psychology student at HELP University College.'s so very different from high school. I guess people here are more mature and they're more open than the peeps at SMKBTHO2. Not surprisingly, when people ask me which school I was from, I tell them the bloody long name, they put on a quizzical expression. My high school is super ulu!!

Today's actually my third day at HELP. I missed the orientation. So, had to make friends by myself. Luckily, I met Carmen at Chemis 101L and made fast friends. Then, she introduced me to her friends she met at orientation and we kinda formed into a clique. Anyway...I still feel kinda like a kampung girl. Most of them come from PJ/Ampang area. I'm the only Cheras girl. They are different from people I normally meet at quaint little BTHO. I feel kinda awkward around them sometimes. But it's alright...they're real nice people. After all, we're all freshies, so, we talk about the same kiddy stuff.

I thought going college and escaping the evil clutches of high school would grant me more free time, more margin for myself. It's probably the opposite. Sure, classes are shorter. But the travelling time and early classes drive me crazy. Just yesterday, I had four classes in line and had to wake up at 6am to travel all the way to college just to avoid the morning rush. Then, I waited for 40min for the bus to KL Sentral to go home and took KTM to Tasik Selatan. My sis came to pick me up at the station and eventually, I arrived home at 8.40pm. So, from now onwards, I hate tuesdays. I used to hate mondays because I was lazy for Taekwondo and classes were pretty heavy. But now, colleges are even heavier than high schools.

Though, campus life is pretty cool. For one, I have full access to a pc with internet and a huge library(with real books...not crappy high school BM novels). The people here are more open than high school faculty and students(even muslims). I can get to know people from Korea, Japan, Arab, Pakistan,'s pretty cool! I can tell people I'm from Korea and they'd believe. Well...I don't have to, most already think I am. I'm just waiting for some Korean to walk up to me and start talking in their language. Basically, I can have a totally different identity from high school.

I miss my high school friends, though. I'm just afraid that we'll be further apart because of the distance. I love them and I wouldn't want to lose them. At the beginning, I was real quiet with my college friends and I don't know what to say. I am the kind of person that keeps quite when we're not close and talks a lot when we're close enough. I can't really be myself in front of them. I can't joke stupid things with them like I do with Joolz. I think they won't get it. It's like Joolz and I are the only people on Planet Earth that understands the joke. I'm opening up to them, though. Slowly, I'm beginning to talk crap a lot.

Starting whole anew in a totally different surrounding with no one I know is pretty scary. I had had my comfort zone at BTHO for 17 years and this is the first time I had to go out by myself and make new friends. Starting from the first step in college has a weird feeling to it too. I'm treated like a kid again, I am at the lowest point in college life-I'm a freshman.