Life in Technicolor

I hate America!

2011-09-18T03:34:00.003+08:00

Well...not all of America. Just the people dealing with my money. First off, Stony Brook University raised the tuition fee because Cuomo passed the bill to increase the tuition fees of SUNYs every year for the next five years because he wants to improve the education system. But who knows how much of that money goes into the education fund? A little heads up would have been nice. Just a few weeks before I transferred (after I've paid all the deposits) they told me that, "Oh, we're gonna take more money from you because we can." It frustrates me so much that there's nothing I can do to prevent that. Because he's the governor, he can take my money?

Then there's Bank of America. Don't even get me started on the overdraft fine. That is just ridiculous. But what happened today is even more ridiculous. So I opened an account with BOA on the 17th of August. I was given a temporary debit card when I opened the account and was told that I will get the permanent one in about 7 business days. It's been exactly a month. They've sent me two mails; one bank statement and one for tax forms (which I don't know why I have to do. I'm not a US citizen! You're not taking any more money from me!). But no sign of any debit card. Oh, that's fine and dandy until I realized that my temporary card expired because I couldn't pay my tuition fees or take my money out of the ATM. I called customer service and was put on hold (that's fine and all IF THEY WOULD JUST STOP PLAYING THE BLOODY MACHINE SAYING SHIT LIKE, "BECAUSE OUR CUSTOMERS ARE VERY IMPORTANT TO US, WE MAY E-MAIL YOU WITH A BRIEF SURVEY TO GET REVIEWS ON OUR CUSTOMER SERVICE" I'd rather have my arms ripped off than answer a BOA survey!) What I got from Ashlee of customer service was that BOA ordered a permanent card for me but FORGOT TO MAIL IT TO ME! Ohhh....you had no idea how much I wanted to curse her. But I didn't. So proud of me. I called 2 weeks ago and was told that I will get it in 10 business days. Why didn't that lady tell me they FORGOT TO MAIL IT!? Would've been nice to know then. I have to wait till they send me the bloody card on Friday. So now, I have no way of getting to my money. I am stranded in the United States of America with no money. Good job, Bank of America. I applaud you.

Then there's AT&T. I signed up for it in the city and used it for 3 days. Cancelled it on the 4th day to get on Virgin Mobile because it was too expensive. Got charged $54 for 3 days of calls, texts and the activation fee plus tax. I was told that I will get my $500 deposit back in 2 weeks, plus US Postal Office mail time. I was supposed to get that check yesterday. But no...I didn't. I check the mail box every single day. So I called them after BOA. They didn't mail a check at all. They credited my deposit but it was never mailed out. The case was even closed! What? So if I didn't call...they would've just taken my money like that? Lady on the line said she'd open the case for me again. Now I have to wait for another week for them to call back so they can figure out how to send me the money. Which means I have to wait godknowshowlong for the check/credit. What irks me so much is that it took minutes for them to take money from my account for the bill but it's been a month and they still haven't sent me my deposit back. What's up with that?!

You want to know what is wrong with all of them? When it comes to money, they don't care who they screw over. They just want their benefits. Customer service is just a way for them to screw us over even more with their phone holds and surveys. They don't take the effort to tell us what we have to do step by step to get what we want. When I opened the account with BOA, she didn't bother telling me the fine details. Just gave me a booklet and told me how to credit money into the account, use eBanking and take money from ATM. What about the tax forms? Or how I have to pay to cancel my account? Same goes with AT&T. If the guy on the line told me how to get my deposit back (or if I can even get it back) when he cancelled my line, it would've been nice. Thank you America, you strengthened my love for Malaysia.

Complaints

2011-09-14T13:56:00.002+08:00

Ohmyblogiloveyousomuch! Yes, you can tell that I'm either drunk or sleepy. And I'm prohibited from alcohol so it's gotta be the second one. Why am I still not sleeping you ask? Well, I had to write this journal assignment for my transfer seminar class. Just completed, now catching up with friends back at home. I was just telling Albert how ever since I came here, I've been complaining a lot about my life. I love it here. I do appreciate this great education opportunity. But housekeeping details in my life have been agitating to me. Because I live on my own now, I have to worry about the internet bills, the rent, my mobile no. and FOOD! I buy groceries every weekend but somehow I never find time to really cook for lunch or like today, no food the entire day. I woke up late, thinking I can just go to class at 11.20 and that's it. But no...I had to go to the Visa office because they didn't scan my documents properly and then, I had to decide whether I should drop this writing class or not. Easy A vs. More Time. In the end, I dropped it but I had to wait till my writing class today is over for whatever nostalgic reasons I had. So, I was late for my next class which is Psychology (my major=very important). I couldn't go to class before dropping the class because today is the last day to drop subjects. Yupp, it's so me.

I do realize that I have more complaints about everything in general. It shouldn't be like that. My non-Christian friends here embrace the godly principle of not complaining better than I do. Oh, sure...PSY338 is hard. Just suck it up and do it! Get an A! Get into grad school! No, get into grad school in Stanford! This shall be a beautiful memory of me beating myself up. Gooooonight lovely people! :)

American English 101

2011-09-03T11:17:00.001+08:00

Say a lot of 'like's, 'basically's and 'oh my god's in your sentences. You'll fit right in. It does have negative consequences, however. One big one being that some people will eventually get annoyed at the repititive words.

Life as a student

2011-08-23T08:47:00.001+08:00

Sad thing about living as a student? I have to cut corners everywhere. I just ate out of the pan I cooked with and it also happens to be my kettle/pot. Oh, I'm using disposable spoon and chopsticks I got from chinese takeaway. Ahh...this is why they say students have no money.

Birthday Wishlist for my 20th

2011-07-16T01:42:00.003+08:00

Alrighty, this is my first birthday wishlist in my (almost) 20 years of age. If the things I request seem preposterous to you, bear with me. This is my first time and I'm doing this mostly for fun.

Lunch/Dinner at Tao Restaurant.
Pencil case: No special preferences. As long as you think it looks nice and it's about the same size as my current one (it can fit my scientific calculator and a stapler).
Combat boots: My feet are about 24.5cm-25cm in length (US size 7 1/2 to 9; UK size 5-6 1/2; Europe size 38-40).
A new haircut: I don't care where I get it done, as long as it's a decent place.
Water tumbler: No special preferences, just a secure one and can fill at least 500ml would do.
e-Book reader
Canon PowerShot SX230 HS

Hint - I like the colors purple and white.

If none of these work for you, I can always use some winter clothes (long-sleeved shirts (cotton), scarves, jackets (fleece/waterproof), hoodie, swimsuit, cotton socks and jeans. No other special preferences. You can just ring me up and I'll follow you wherever to get the right fitting.

Keep in mind that I will still appreciate other presents and simple birthday wishes. This post is just to give an idea for people like Lim Ke Xin.

Updates!

2011-07-08T01:56:00.001+08:00

A few updates in my life:
1) My laptop went dead on me. I believe it's not salvageable, unless I'm willing to fork up 700 big ones for it. So, I'm currently working on my sister's laptop which she got with her allowance (HA!) and now she doesn't want it. It was supposed to be my brother's slave computer but somehow he gets little electric shocks from using it. I'm now using a laptop named Jen Hoe and has none of my stuff in it except a folder for Afterschool.

2) I finally couldn't take all the pressure from balancing my Stony Brook preparations AND my job that I told Rajah I would quit in the middle of the month instead of the end. He was pretty cool about it. Yeah, I have a really nice boss. If only he could be less demanding. Or maybe I'm just lazy since I've never gotten a real job before and therefore, never known real pressure. [Rajah, if you're reading this, you know I love you! Hahahaha. Please don't write a bad testimonial for me.]

3) I'm finally gonna move to Stony Brook, New York! Yays for me! A lot of people around me has been oohing and ahhing about New York City when I tell them about SBU. It's an awesome place since it's only about an hour and half from The City that Never Sleeps, The Big Apple, the home of The Statue of Liberty, Times Square (THE Times Square and not Berjaya's rip-off version) and Broadway. I really appreciate being so near a metropolitan and all (kinda reminds of of home in Cheras where it's only half an hour away from KL city center) but I wouldn't have minded being in a suburban/rural area because people would be friendlier.

Speaking of moving to New York, these past few weeks has been really busy for me. I had to renew my passport (don't get me started on the immigration department!), apply for visa (who knew I had to pay so much and fill in so many forms for it!?), find an apartment, start shopping and packing and say my goodbyes. Nope, I still haven't found a place. Rent is really expensive, it's about $400 a month. Still, it's cheaper than living off-campus which is about $569 a month, and I can't cook. Meaning, crappy cafeteria food everyday.
I have no people to depend on there so I was kinda afraid of going-still am, a little. Thankfully, my sister has a couple of friends from SBU and I got Ms. Naini to help with contacting a few HELP seniors there. SBU has this Commuter Assistant program too.

I still feel pretty bad about not being smart enough to get a scholarship. Why is it always like that, huh? I've always been in the top class in school and I'm one of the good students in college (I think) but I'm never the best. In school, it was Gayathri and in college, it was uhh...someone I didn't know but definitely not me. I've always gotten better than average scores but not the best. In SPM, I was one A away from a scholarship. Well, at that time anyway. Now, HELP ADP decided to lower their requirements and if I entered college this year, I could've knocked off RM2,000 off my tuition. Not a lot, but it's something. Most scholarships need at least a 3.5 and what do I have? A 3.45! I'm so close but yet so far. I'm always the underdog.
I want to make my parents proud. It breaks my heart sometimes when I see how my dad has to work in Johor, away from the family and his whole life just to be able to support my education. Gah! So frustrating. If only I knew that this day would come. Then I would've taken Form 6 instead and saved us that RM30k. Or at least applied for a PTPTN loan.

I'm crossing my fingers and hope for the best for my experience in SBU. I'll commit all my time into academics, networking and employment. Pray for me!

Who's the best teacher you ever had? What made them your favorite?

2011-05-04T21:13:00.002+08:00

My English teacher, Puan Dyanthi. She isn't afraid to tell it like it is. That and the fact that she's awesome. (:

Ask me anything

Accepted!

2011-03-29T15:19:00.005+08:00

I got accepted by Stony Brook University! Teehee! It's about $25,132 for tuition and room+board. It's pretty cheap for a good Psychology school. But with my dad retired and all...I'm still not sure if I should accept the offer. Sigh...I should just apply for the Singapore Scholarship and see how it goes. Anyway, here's the e-mail I got;

Dear Audrey,

Yes, we did receive the documents. At this point, I am pleased to inform you that we have reviewed your academic records and you are eligible for admission to Stony Brook University. In order to be fully accepted to Stony Brook University and to obtain an I-20 to study at a U.S. institution, you must submit the following financial documents. For further assistance on organizing your application and required supporting academic documentation please view the International Undergraduate Application Checklist & Instructions.

~[list of documents omitted]~

Stony Brook University Processing Center Mailing Address:
Stony Brook University
UG Processing - INTL
279 Broadway
Albany, NY 12204-2755
U.S.A.

Thank you,
Bogdan Scurtu

I'm not sure if I'll even go but knowing that a university accepted me just feels darn good. Since I got rejected by Berea College, I thought I'll never transfer to the US. At least there's a lil' bit of hope now. Thank you, Stony Brook! :)

How it is at work

2011-03-26T19:01:00.012+08:00

I used to like answering questions on Yahoo! Answers, especially questions about education. The reason for the past tense is that I got sick of it after doing it for the past 5 days on my job. Allow me to explain: 23rd of March 2011 marked the release of the results of the most publicized (in my opinion) standardized exam in our country. Three letters; S. P. M. In short, it's like puberty for brains. I'm guessing about 90% of 17 year olds in Malaysia takes the SPM (citation needed). So, some of them, fresh out of SPM, believing in everything their parents and teachers tell them (e.g. Get into the Science stream. You should become a doctor or a lawyer.) start asking a bunch of generic questions on Afterschool.my or our Facebook page. The most common one would be; "Hi. My results for SPM is (some-grades-I-don't-care-jackshit-about-why-are-you-telling-me-this-?). What course should I study?" The thing is, I don't really mind helping them find their 'destiny' in life. I actually like doing those things. But can they give me some clues? There's only about a thousand of courses they could do and all they're tellin' me are some grades that don't really matter. 'Cause we all know what the Ministry of Education do to our grades to make it seem like we're getting smarter so the big-wigs at parliament can pat themselves on the back and call it a job well done.

There's one type of people among these that are particularly annoying. I call them the 'Doctor-wannabes'. Similarly, they tell me a bunch of grades I don't wanna know but this time, they focus on the Science grades. Asking me if they can still study Medicine if they did badly in their Biology, Chemistry and Physics subjects. I don't know what the teachers and parents feed the kids but all of them seem to think that doing badly in SPM is of an equal standing to the end of their lives. Okay, so they didn't do well in Science....they can still go into private colleges to do Medicine. The extent of what SPM grades can tell in the future is about as much as my ability to predict what my dog is having for dinner tomorrow night. (Read: not much, only limited to the immediate future if any at all.) But the bigger issue here is not with their Science grades, it's in their ability to see the mistakes in saying; "How to study doctor?", "I want to study as a doctor." and "Choosing a doctor as my career path." If they can't even converse properly, how can they do all that molecular biology, virus detection stuff? I'm also seriously doubting their interest in Medicine. Are they sincerely considering Medicine as a career field because they want to help mankind and all that noble stuff or is it because of the money or maybe it's their parents' lifelong dream after witnessing their children play doctor? I don't know. What I do know however, is that half of them would probably just drop out the moment they know how difficult and time-consuming it is to study Medicine. And then they'll take up some generic course like Mass Comm (#6 in The 10 Most Worthless College Majors list) or Business Admin. This just goes to show how practical us Asians are when it comes to careers. It's all about the money, eh?

Rejection

2011-03-20T21:30:00.004+08:00

So, Berea replied to me yesterday with this e-mail:

Dear Wai Siong:
The International Admissions Committee would like to thank you for the interest you have shown in Berea College. However, I am sorry to inform you that we are unable to offer you admission at this time. You are invited to apply again next year, but you will need to resubmit all of your materials and use the new International Application form, which will be available in June 2011.
International students are highly valued by Berea College, a learning, labor, and service community that has always sought to welcome all peoples of the earth. However, our mission to serve the Appalachian mountain region limits us to only 30 international students per year, despite the fact that we receive application materials from more than 1,000 students worldwide.
Please accept our best wishes as you continue to pursue your educational goals.
Sincerely,
Luke Hodson
Director of Admissions
PS: Regrettably, we are unable to return your application materials to you or forward them to another institution on your behalf.

Sigh...I placed a lot of hope into this college. I really thought I was going to get in because my SAT scores were up to their standards. Maybe it's because I'm a transfer student and my credits are harder to transfer? Or maybe I'm just not meant to go to the US? One thing's for sure; if #67 Berea doesn't accept me, why would Trinity College that's ranked #36 take me in? Even if the acceptance rate is higher in Trinity.

When I read the e-mail yesterday, I knew it wasn't gonna be good. Usually when it's good news, they'd name the mail something along the lines of; "Berea welcomes you!" or "Congratulations!" but noooo~ the subject for my mail was; "Regarding your application for admission" I didn't know they'd reply me that fast...the website said they'd send out letters in April. Maybe I'm just that much out of their radar that they rejected me first? I felt numb..I can't even bring myself to read the whole letter (even until now), I just picked up words like, "sorry" and "unable to offer".

I wanted to cry and ask God why couldn't I get in!? Is it because I didn't pray hard enough? But the reason why I didn't pray hard enough was that I didn't know where God planned for me to go. If I could've gotten in when I prayed hard enough, I would hate myself so much right now. My heart hurts so bad...Berea would've been an answer to my parents' financial problems. I could get a cheap college with the expense of the academic standards, but I don't want that! I think I deserve to get a good education. Berea just sits right in the middle of the academic-finance scale. It was perfect.

But life just sucks sometimes, huh? With that door closed, I'm just hoping that the other two doors will open. If this fourth door named Singapore Scholarship (which is way harder to get into) opens, I'd just go along with it. It's not my dream, but who cares about my dreams? My priority right now should be what God has planned for me to do. I only hope that he'd make it clearer to me what his plans are so I won't place my hopes in the wrong places. Read: If Stanford University is not where I'm meant to be, please tell me so. I don't want to feel this bad anymore. There's no way I'd get into Stanford for my undergraduate studies, I'm hoping I'd get in for my postgrad. I kept thinking however, "If the world ends before I get into my Masters, I'd never set foot on Stanford grounds." ARGH!! Why did I ever make Albert Bandura my mentor? ('Cause he's the awesome-st theorist still alive today?)

Cursed

2011-03-11T17:48:00.002+08:00

I'm currently blogging this from my office-YEAH! I got a job as a writer at Afterschool. It's this website that specializes in counseling for after SPM students (I know, what an original name, right?). Anyway, I'm happy 'cause I get to do what I like-writing and get paid for it. Plus, I only need to check into the office once a week. The rest of the days, I work from home. I finished all the assignments I could think of. I'm just waiting for my editor and boss to reply my e-mail now. Since I've got time...I might as well do something 'productive'.

For the past few years, I've been pretty irritable when it comes to correcting English grammar and vocabulary. I've only come to this realization these few days when I suddenly become more acute of wrong grammar in people around me. (Maybe it's because of my new job?) Now I know how hard it is to hold myself down from correcting people's English. I'm not saying mine is perfect. Heck, my spoken English is really bad...people have a hard time trying to understand through all my mumbling. But when I listen to people, I can't help but dissect the words that come out of their mouths and grammatically correct them. I don't say it out loud, oh no. I just mouth the corrected words out or just think them in my mind. It drives me crazy!

I personally know how embarrassing and terrible it feels when people correct me. My dad's been doing it for years and he's proud of it. That's why I don't correct other people. But what if they keep making the same mistakes over and over again!? Someone has got to do the correction, but hopefully not me.

Heh...looking back at my HELP college days, I've seen Trish struggle from correcting people many times. She would literally be in spasms from holding herself back. I didn't get it back then but I know now. I'm not at that level...yet?

Really?

2011-02-24T01:44:00.004+08:00

I've always done pretty well in spelling tests. This one seemed so simple that it's ~~embarassing~~ embarrassing how I got Calendar as Calender!

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I want my Mama!!

2011-02-09T23:51:00.000+08:00

This ad made me cry like a little girl. Imagine, 6 months from now...I'm going off to the States as well. The exact same thing at the beginning of the ad happened to me. I got irritated at my mom for asking me how to switch on the telly more than a few times. Ahh...the guilt. I hope that my mum knows that I actually love her very much despite all my actions showing otherwise.

Dear God, My Ideal Box

2010-10-15T20:31:00.011+08:00

Sometimes I wish I could pick out the little things and people in life that I like and put them into a box. Then I'll live the rest of my life inside that box. If that were to come true, my box would have lavender fields, chocolate falls, ice-cream boats swimming in the chocolate that would never melt, marshmallow penguins and dolphins that would swim with me in the chocolate river, books in the clouds that I can just pluck out and read, stars made of gummy bears, flowers with all the colors I could think of for me to use as paintbrushes whenever I feel like painting on the sky, a floating glass house with a bed made of bubbles that would sometimes float up and around the sky, I would use a rainbow to slide down from the house and a bubble would take me up, the weather will change according to my mood (when I'm happy, I want to see the sun and when I'm sad, I want to see the moon), when I want to watch something, the sky is the screen, a tune would follow with each step that I take, AND all the people that I love would be there; my family, friends, Super Junior, Coldplay, Backstreet Boys...

This just goes to show that a person can think of anything at all when imagination is applied. I just feel sad these few days because I know that next year when I transfer, I need to separate from all the things I've known for 19 years of my life. I know it will happen eventually but a person can dream, right? What's your box like?

I'm tired of Multi-level Marketing

2010-08-30T23:46:00.011+08:00

I got pitched for MLM again, this time it was for Herbalife. I'm tired of these direct selling plans, it's getting annoying. My mum's doing Cosway, Dhinesh is doing Amway now this random girl on Facebook texted me for Herbalife. From the first moment I heard about MLM, I've had a bad feeling about it.

It was when my sister and mum got into Lampe Berger. The first time they got pitched the idea, I was there and it felt wrong to me. It felt like it's going against nature, going through a shortcut in life. I didn't like it at all. They started by investing RM3000, buying oil lamps. Then my sister got all excited and started her 'business' to earn some money of her own. Eventually the hype died down and we all just forgot about it. A few years later, we heard that the whole scheme collapsed and all the members got into debt. Thank God we only started small.

Then when I left my sheltered life behind in Cheras and got into college, I got exposed to MLM on a bigger scale. First it was Dhinesh, my friend from college. His parents is in Amway and he plans to build his own Amway business and retire early so he can travel and achieve his dreams. I really think he can do it, he's the kind of person that will succeed in MLM. When he talked to me about his home-based business, I had no idea it was MLM at all. I brought my mum along to this talk he had. The moment they said the words Amway and MLM, a fresh wave from the past flooded me. Call me skeptical, but I don't like anything that has to do with MLM. From that time onwards, whenever Dhinesh talked to me about Amway, I just nod and make agreeable sounds but remain distant about it. He was persistent and finally I promised him that if whenever I want to get into MLM, I would ask him for help.

Then my mum went into Cosway, she was and is absolutely positive about it. Cosway is like Amway, but they run shops. She plans to run a Cosway shop of her own with her friend. I guess it's okay because she just invests a returnable deposit and Cosway will pay for the shop's expenditure. But then she has to buy a certain amount of items from Cosway every month. Now I'm deprived of certain brands of common items like Darlie, Pantene and Kotex. Cosway has their own brands for everything but it feels odd. I've been using these brands for years and I don't like how I have to change them now. My mum tried to sign me on to her downline but I was against it. She was okay with it, she got my sister and brother to help her out.

A few days back, this girl, Nikko messaged me on Facebook about hiring Psychology graduates and students from HELP University College. She said it's a wellness coach job and she's a nutritionist. I saw pictures of her on Facebook about Herbalife and I knew something was off. But, I put all my pessimistic thoughts behind. It sounded good because I needed a job anyway, so I went for it and met her today. To say I was disappointed was an understatement. I was expecting a proper job where I get to exercise my psychological skills I learned at college. When we sat down to talk about the 'job prospects', I immediately got down to business and stated the obvious, "Is Herbalife about MLM?" The dude, Victor who was with Nikko said after a slight pause, "Oh..Herbalife is more than MLM, it's helping people." He wasn't even answering the question. He said Herbalife is helping people by giving them the right nutrition. They showed a lot of pictures; fat people turn slim, slim people turn fat, skinny people turn buff, acne faces turn smooth, diseased people turn healthy..etc. All the while, he kept saying, "Won't you like helping these people? How would you feel psychologically if you get to help these people?" I turned distant when I realized that it's MLM, yet again. I just agreed at the right parts and went along with it.

To think that they actually related all this to psychology. What does it have to do with anything I've learned!? I'm actually quite offended by this. Wellness coach and nutritionist, really now!!?? I didn't work so hard on my degree to be a salesperson. Oh wait, no...they kept saying it's not sales, it's helping people. If I'm earning money from it, it doesn't feel like I'm helping them. How would I know I'm helping them, eh? It's not cheap to start the Herbalife diet. And it has to be a continuous process. Once you stop taking their products, you gain it all back, right where you started. Sure, at first you're just taking their products, eventually you'd have to sell them too, because you can't afford their bloody protein shakes and vitamins. For their credit, their products does seem to work, if you're into protein shakes and multivitamins. If you live to eat proper food like me, don't even think about it. Water and exercise is all you need.

[Omit reading this part if you're not Victor or Nikko but go ahead if you're just that curious]

Victor and Nikko, if you're reading this right now, I'm not going to your customer day this Sunday. Please don't persuade me anymore, I don't want it to get ugly...especially since we're all children of God. We can still be friends. ^^ I just don't like the whole idea of MLM. Now, I know how Victor said it's just a tool to help people. Where money's involved, it doesn't feel right. It feels like MLM is making a tool out of us. Remember Matthew 6:19-24? I don't think I can spend so much time on earning money and still serve God wholeheartedly.

No offense to those doing well in MLM, I'm sure it's a great way to earn money, passive income and all that. But a person like me cannot and will not do well in MLM. I hate persuading people, especially people I know. It's like I'm milking money from the people I trust and love. So, when I make friends, it doesn't feel genuine, business have to come first. Oh, and don't start telling me how it's great to earn a better income and not have employers boss you around. Let me experience it myself! How would you know that I don't like getting bossed around and I like earning lotsa money!?

I have worked before and I actually like having a boss, I don't have to take as many responsibilities and I like letting people telling me what to do..it's simpler that way. I want to earn money with the degree that I've studied so hard for. Sure, I may earn a measly salary at the beginning and maybe even after I work really hard, I won't get as much as a high ranking MLM distributor does*. To me, that's a good thing. I don't want to have lots of money and retire. I actually like studying and working. I think if there's too much money in my life, it takes away the fun of life...takes away my focus on God.

It's like when you play a computer game, let's say The Sims, you enter a cheat code and get lots of money to buy a nice house with grand furniture. At the beginning of the game, it's really fun with so much money, you get anything you want and have fun building your house. After that, you realize the house is too big and lodged with so much crap, you can't play at ease. It gets boring because you don't have anything to do. The purpose of the whole game was to go on a journey, to achieve your dreams using your own means. You're supposed to study and work for money to buy your dream car, build your dream house and get the dream life partner. With so much money, there's no need to work hard anymore. You skip a whole chapter of your life. Sure, it's hard to work...but it's also fun. The ecstatic feeling you get when you get your first paycheck. The years of hard labor to get that promotion and when you finally got it, how would you feel? Your dream house, put together by years of dreaming, seeing it built in front of your very own eyes bit by bit. Won't you wanna experience it all?

*btw, only about 1%-10% of MLM investors earn any profit. The usual amazing testimonies at weekend seminars probably involve exaggerated salaries or they're really the lucky few that managed to earn so much. It's not easy to do MLM, it involves a lot of hard work and sacrifices (like your children).

Kiss Goodbye

2010-08-10T22:22:00.005+08:00

GOODBYE CARMEN SUM YUEN YEE!

My very first college friend.

Very good assignment buddy.

When I think of you, I think of;

Determination.

Being ambitious.

Being committed.

Wang Lee Hom.

As a tribute to you, I listened to Wang Lee Hom today.

I will see you next year~!

Remember to write and Skype me loads! ^^

A Slice for Everyday - Raspberry

2010-08-08T23:09:00.005+08:00

Sorry for the really late post..was resting from my trip to China and Blogger is banned in China.

Thanks to my high school friends, I got to sample 7 different types of cheese cakes from Secret Recipe.

Was planning to eat one slice per day but I had that China trip.

So, I ate everything in one go, with some help from my family.

I started out with something I like, Blueberry Cheese Cake.

Oh wait, scratch that...it turns out that it's Raspberry after all.

I've never had Raspberry Cheese Cake before, something new.

It had like teeny little seeds in there, which is kinda annoying really.

And the shape is horrible...because it was carried around all the way to Shah Alam and back without refrigeration.

I'm surprised it didn't turn into a puddle of liquid.

I liked that it was creamy and dense with a hint of sour from the fruit.

But the disfigured shape really made it hard to eat.

Cakes like these are meant to be eaten with the cookie crust attached to the cheese.

I had bites with lots of crust and some just the cheese alone.

All in all, this cake is not my favorite slice...I've had better ones.

Blueberry Cheese Cake still wins over Raspberry Cheese Cake. Amen?

What happened to me today?

2010-07-13T17:12:00.006+08:00

I've heard of it.

Learned about it.

But never in my life would I ever think I would experience it.

It happened minutes before my Anthropology exam.

It's safe to say, my concentration went out the window.

When I arrived 'safely' at college,

I was freaking out, telling my friends I was really scared.

They were like, "Don't worry about it. It's just an exam".

Then I told them it's not that.

Then they started guessing what happened to me.

They finally got it and were disgusted by it.

Some of them told me their own similar experiences.

At least I wasn't alone, I felt better.

When I walked past the crime scene,

I held my breath and ran.

I was terrified of that place.

When I walked to my car,

I was hoping some other female would be there

Then history won't repeat itself again.

I heard footsteps.

I got my keys out and was ready to gouge eyes out.

It was a girl.

I let my breath out and thanked God.

I sped away in my car.

When I paid for my parking at the counter.

It was a dude.

I've seen him countless times.

But today, he seemed different.

I don't dare to stay near him long.

When I reached home,

I texted Sal and Kexin.

Told them what happened to me today.

Sal being Sal, totally don't know what I'm talking about.

I had to explain to him.

Kexin was disgusted as well.

We both sighed at my lost innocent mind.

I kept imagining what I could've done.

I could've called the cops.

I could've kicked him in the nuts.

I could've stapled him.

I could've used pepper spray on him.

Heck, I could've used a gun on him.

But what really happened was,

I was surprised.

I went a bit blur.

I walked off.

When I realized what happened and what might happen,

I ran off.

So, what happened to me today?

I got flashed.

*To those studying/working near HELP, don't hang around the bus stop opposite the highway from UOA.

*Never park at ECM Libra ever, unless you have someone with you.

*Even a person like me who has a brown black in Taekwondo gets afraid too.

*Bring self-defense devices if you can.

Headphones

2010-07-11T21:16:00.003+08:00

Ahh...I lost my earphones again. Time to get a proper pair of headphones! I suddenly remembered about the headphones Donghae wore in Seoul Song MV.

It's shooo cutee! I looked throught a lot of websites. The brand is called Mix-Style. Some say it's not reliable, some think otherwise. Apparently there are a lot of fakes out there. The price ranges from RM45 to USD105 (plus shipping). If only there is a shop in KL that sells them. I'm going to China soon anyway, maybe they sell them there.

It's quite common...someone said it's practically everywhere on the streets on Hong Kong. Japanese created them..but I think they're kinda over it already. Hmm...should I get them?

Happy Teuk Day~

2010-07-01T00:53:00.008+08:00

Hoho..wondering why I would suddenly post on my blog after so long?

It's because today is Leeteuk a.k.a 'the dude on my key chain' of Super Junior's birthday.

Ahh~ already the second time I see him grow older another year.

I wished him on twitter:

"@special1004 생일 축하 합니다! 사랑해 오빠~#happyteukday"

It basically translates as "Happy Birthday! I love you, oppa~"

Really, I don't know what to wish him.

Took me a while to get the right words to wish him in Korean too.

Not like his English is good either.

The ELFs gave him a Macbook Air for his birthday! Dang! They're good!

And Donghae just mentioned that he 'likes' the Apple iPad, the fans get it for him.

It's not even his birthday.

If you see me anytime today, I'll be all happy because it's his birthday.

And it's my birthday month.

People, I expect a party planned for me, okay?

Do you like me??

2010-05-20T18:16:00.002+08:00

Who are you?

Ask me anything

I get it now

2010-05-19T23:14:00.008+08:00

Sometimes, I feel like I'm all alone in the world, especially since I'm leaving soon. We had so many plans...go on a trip to Melaka, baking cupcakes, karaoke. Can I do all that before I go? None of the people I know here will follow me to the States, so why bother getting closer now? It will just hurt more when we part.

I'm counting down to the day when I have to say goodbye. I have yet to choose the university that I want to attend, let alone apply. But it still feels closer than ever. Always Be My Baby by David Cook on replay.

We were as one babe

For a moment in time

And it seemed everlasting

That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free

So I'm letting you fly

Cause I know in my heart babe

Our love will never die

No!

You'll always be a part of me

I'm a part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no

And I won't beg you to stay

If you're determined to leave girl

I will not stand in your way

But inevitably you'll be back again

Cause ya know in your heart babe

Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl

When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh

I know that, you'll be right back, babe

Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be a part of me (you will always be)

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby

Credits: Lyricsty

Day 4 of Holiday

2010-05-06T17:43:00.005+08:00

Went to Carrefour with Mum today.

Was too bored that I wrote 'Jusco Rules!' on Carrefour's refrigerator.

Went to claim the 'free gift' from buying Pacific West fish sandwiches.

The lady there was so rude...I told her, "Nak claim free gift untuk Pacific West, sauce itu." (Sighh...I know, terrible BM) (-.-)

She said, "Apa dia?"

"Ehh...sauce itu...rasanya mayonnaise la."

She was like, "Haa? Boleh tengok barang tak?"

My mum was all the way at the other side of the mall, I had to walk back and take the frozen sandwiches from her.

When I showed it to her. She said, "Oohh...MAYONNAISEEE~! You kata apa tadi? Sos??"

Took a lot of effort to not climb over the counter to claw at her face. "Ye lah. Mayonnaise tu sauce la." (And the product brand was called 'Sauz'. Dudee!)

After fiddling around and trying to find the MAYO, she said, "Sorry la..rasanya dah habis stok."

In my mind I was like, aren't you supposed to know your work space clearly? Know where you put everything exactly.

"Saya boleh gantikan dengan barang lain la."

"Barang apa?"

"Sos tiram atau sos cili."

I SAID, "SOS CILI LAH."

Next thing I know, she gave me sos tiram. Ahh! I don't care anymore. Whatever. I know my mum would have said we don't eat oyster sauce anymore..why can't you change to anything else? And she did. If I talk to that counter lady anymore, I could lose control and claw her eyes out with my key chain.

So, what have we learned today, kids? Jusco is better than Carrefour! *insert ooohhhs and aaahhhs*

Hmm...can't really see, but I wrote 'Jusco Rules'

Remembering Her...

2010-04-14T01:01:00.003+08:00

Suddenly felt like putting on some really sad song and cry my eyes out. Kexin told me her grandpa's in ICU now. Brings back memories of visiting my grandma. Sometimes I would suddenly stop in the middle of doing something to think about her. They're not all sad memories but her last days were the most remembered. I have had a lot of 'what if' moments in my life but this I think is by far the most regretted upon. What if I spent more time with her? Every time I passed by her bedroom door, what if I had just looked in and see the lonely person she really was? What if I stepped inside and talked to her? Would she be safe now? Would she be remembered as the grandma everyone knew and loved? Sometimes I wake up or when I hear people talk about their grandparents, I think, "Oh right, I don't have grandparents no more."

Have I ever told you before...

2010-03-30T11:08:00.004+08:00

...that I hate HELP UC? Since the beginning of my college life, I've been comparing HELP and INTI. From little things like, INTI has better food to bigger things like, INTI ADP offers better subjects. Maybe it's innate in me to criticize all the educational institutions I've been in (except for my kindy years). It's true, I've been unhappy about my primary school, secondary school and now my college.

I've begun to accept HELP as it is...and I do see its positive points. Like...ooohh! HELP is having this Global Collaborative Summer Program that allows their students to exchange to Kyunghee University in South Korea for a month. The same university that Kyuhyun is going to! I'm trying to apply for it but my mother has clearly shown her dislike for it because it's expensive (about USD1000 excluding food and air fare) and she thinks there's no good reason for me to go. She thinks I'm only going because I'm crazy about Korean stuff...which is party true but even without the Korean element there, I would still go...if it's at like China or Russia. What's more awesome is that professors from Princeton, Yale, U.Penn, London etc. are teaching the courses! This is my chance of knowing why Ivy Leagues are so renowned!!

Today's negative point was waiting for the bus. I was going to take the shuttle bus over to Main Campus to get my calculator back from Kyeng but I waited for 30 minutes and it won't show up! Kyeng's class is at 11am and by the time the bus arrived, it was 10.55am. It just had to show up when I gave up and went back to class. Sometimes...you can't blame the shuttle buses for being late because of traffic or technical problems. But I sure can blame HELP for building their campus on separate lands. Everyday from 7am to 7pm, at least 3 shuttle buses would ferry students from one campus to another and vice versa. Do you know how much petrol and heat is lost there? I feel so bad for taking the bus sometimes. Ohh..and if HELP could've gotten cheaper parking fees at parking lots near my campus, KPD, I wouldn't have to.

However, I have to give at least a little bit of credit for them to realize this after so many years. Now, they're building this new 'green' campus in Subang. As if harvesting the rain water and sunlight can redeem all the carbon they released. What's worse, I don't even have a chance to enjoy it...it would only be finished in 2011, the very year I'm going over to the US. The swimming pool...art gallery...4000 parking spaces!! Nothing!

Gosh...I sound so bitter. Yeah, if any of you HELP lovers out there reading this, please don't bash me or get me expelled. This is only constructive criticism, at its peak.

Sujuland!

2010-03-28T00:01:00.004+08:00

Sujuland...where Super Junior songs play in your head 24 hours and you dream about them in your sleep. Where flowers with Super Junior faces grow among pearl sapphire blue grass. That's where I was the whole week after the concert. I couldn't do any real work after that. All I did was check Sapphire Pearls a few times everyday, watch Super Junior videos and search for SS2 Malaysia photos. I had a 10 page research paper to pass up that Friday and I haven't written a single word! But somehow, it felt okay...I felt 'happy'. Before, I would've freaked out about it and felt extreme guilt.

You know when you write, there's a flow? Yeah, I lost that after the concert. Before, words would just pop into my head, I'd write them down, and they'd make total sense! For the first time in my college life, I couldn't meet the page limit. We were supposed to write a 10 page report and we only managed to write 9 pages. I felt like half my brain was still in Sujuland...basically, I felt stupid. People, I have a normal IQ level.

For the first time, I felt like totally giving up on the report and go play. I'm the serious one in the group. When I complete something, I feel a sense of accomplishment, pride. This time, I only wrote the paper for the sake of writing and I felt ashamed to hand it in...it didn't feel like I wrote it. They're just a bunch of words put together. Please, don't let me get a C...B is my limit. Worst of all, that subject is a big part of my major. In about 9 months, more work, less time and I'll be by my lonesome self. How am I going to survive in the US?

Post-Super Junior Concert

2010-03-21T01:14:00.006+08:00

This post would involve me acting like a total fangirl. My left ear is seriously damaged from all the screaming. It' still ringing from the concert and it's been 2 hours. But...AHAHAHAH!!! I got to see them up close! And some of the members waved at us! I can't believe we got to see them in person! Some of the fans got to take photos and shake hands with them. Sigh..should've gotten the closer seats.

We went there at about 4pm. To normal people, it's very early for a 7pm concert. But to Super Junior fans, it's considered late. Some of them camped over. The line in front of the stadium was literally a circumference around the stadium. We got some burgers for dinner and hanged around. Everywhere, people are wearing blue and a lot of booths were set up for merchandise. Speaking of which, those bloodsuckers marked up the price. A bottle of water costs RM2 when i could walk further down to the canteen to get it for RM1.20. This 'official' merchandise store was selling a package of 1 t-shirt and 1 plastic flag for RM120! And people actually line up to buy it. I'm not crazy enough for that. They were selling glow sticks as well. Outsiders selling non-sapphire blue glow sticks were overthrown by the ELFs. We were gonna ask the guy how much he's selling them. When a few ELFs came up to the auntie before us asking them not to buy non-sapphire blue glowsticks. Because they want to create a sea of sapphire blue in the stadium. Some people really are dedicated. Oh yeah, we had a total of 6 false alarms. Suddenly in the crowd, someone would scream, causing a chain-effect of screams. Everyone would rush to see but there's really nothing to see. At one point, someone did see someone famous..but it was some local Chinese artist. Yeah, like Super Junior would enter from the front gate! If they want to live, they'd sneak in from the back door/underground.

Okay, I have to admit...the whole sea of sapphire blue thing is pretty awesome (see photo). But Stadium Putra is way too small. Oh...and Marctensia is seriously getting on my nerves. They hired these RELA people to control the crowd and didn't let us bring water bottles in. I don't know why but they checked our bags and refused to let us bring water in. It's 3 hours of screaming! We've got to have water. Apparently they sell water at RM2 per bottle inside. Yeah, so that explains everything. Well, we had our way of sneaking our water bottles in. When we arrived inside, we still had to wait for another hour before they start. They played these ads for our 'enjoyment'. We had our own ways of entertaining. First of, we chanted 'SUJU' a lot of times and screamed everytime they put up ads on Super Junior. Oh, and we did this really cool wave. Even when they were checking the stage lights, we screamed. Basically, we're irritated by the whole waiting.

And then it happened. Everything was going past so fast...one song after another. When they first came in, we screamed like there's no tomorrow. Yeah..I'm gonna let the pictures and videos do the explanation.

Fancams by me.

Photos by me, my friend and a lot of other people from Sapphire Pearls.

*I'm having hallucinations. I can hear screams and chants around me.

Pre-Super Junior Concert

2010-03-20T10:40:00.004+08:00

It's the day of the concert today!! Now people, I know I'm supposed to be over K-Pop and all. (Highlighted by not one, not two, but five of my college friends. Thank, you guys!) I never said I would never listen to/sing K-Pop songs. I'm just not addicted to them and I'm not gonna stalk them. Again, I was just talking about stalking them...I'm not really gonna do it (Yeah, I have Borderline Personality Disorder mixed with a little Passive-Agressive Personality Disorder sometimes). Like Sue said, I'm gonna get trampled in the crowd with all those probably younger and definitely crazier than me fans.

Oooohhh..them being in Malaysia feels so surreal. They're gonna drive on the roads I use everyday. And it's sooo nearr my house! I hope I can see the front stage....anyone has a good pair of CSI material binoculars?

Before the concert, my friends and I are gathering to watch the Super Show 1 dvd. Just to get the hyped up feeling before the real thing. Woohoo~ waiting for 7 hours is finally gonna be worth it!

Crying and Laughing

2010-03-12T11:31:00.003+08:00

Have you ever felt so bad that you wished you could turn back time? Today for the first time in my life, I did. I was trusted with a job to finish editing my group's psychology movie assignment. I worked through the night for it and just for that one last hour before class, I slept and woke up at 11am with 10 missed calls and 2 messages with lots of exclamation marks. The messages said, "Where are you?! It's late already!" At first I thought I was dreaming because the sky can't be bright yet...I'm not sweating from nervousness in Winnee's class.

Then I felt like the whole world fell on my shoulders...it hurts but I can't do anything. All at once, a few voices started debating in my head.

My survival instincts came in and naturally I defended myself. "I'm human too! I slipped just that one time and I have to pay for it?"

Then another voice cried, "Why God!? Why would you do this to me!?"

An angry voice came out, "I haven't been talking to God. The many times I turned my back against God...this happens to me."

But God won't do this to me without reason, right? Then realization kicks me hard in the face. I remember hearing sermons about bad things happening to us and the first thing that comes into our minds is 'God is angry with me'. Most of the time, it's all our own doing...sure, God plans for these things to happen for us to learn but when it boils down to blaming, it's all us.

I tried to call Sue but she won't pick up...class is already over, she should be okay to answer my call.

Then I thought, "Oh no! What if she's still in class and her phone rang when I called her and now the whole class is punished because of me?"

That would certainly make them hate me more than they already do. As I pace around the house thinking what should I do...I cried in helplessness. They don't teach us in school on what to do when faced with these kinds of problems. I can never speak to my friends again and even if they forgive me, a crack will always be there in our friendship. They will never trust me again.

I sent a text to Sue and Audrey that read,

"Please call or text me. I can understand if you guys don't want to talk to me anymore. At least let me know if you handed in the other version or not."

Yes, there was another version of the assignment done by Sue. We were supposed to watch the two versions together and decide which one to hand in. Thankfully, Sue called me back...I was hesitant to pick up because I don't know what to say. Beg for forgiveness on my knees? I picked up and the first thing Sue said,

"Do we look like idiots to you?"

In my mind, "I'm doomed!!"

I answered..."No."

She said, "Of course we handed in my version."

I felt the whole world just lifted off my shoulder and I could smile again.

She said, "Don't beat yourself up la..."

I could only manage to answer in short grunts after that because I couldn't express how thankful I am.

I put down the phone and cried and laughed at the same time. It's not the end of the world after all. I have always known that sleep was my greatest enemy. Sleep to me is like Kryptonite to Superman. The reason why I'm always late for everything in the past, present and most probably in the future is sleep and time management problems. Well...what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right? So now I know that I should never lie on the bed when I'm pulling an all-nighter.

Pictures worth a thousand words - Dating

2010-02-14T11:21:00.004+08:00

Open the skies

2010-02-01T22:56:00.004+08:00

Sigh..hunting for unis is not easy. I really don't know where to go, somewhere that is in budget and good for psychology. There are so many unis out there. Where should I go? I'm already trying to increase my CGPA further. I really don't want to use up my parents' retirement funds. God, help me to make the right choices.

SUPAH JUNIAH SHOW DUA

2010-01-23T00:50:00.004+08:00

This is a long overdue post that I meant to write on Monday. Ehem..so, I don't have classes on Mondays which is perfectly fine for me to line up for the Super Show 2 tickets. What I did not expect is to spend my whole day there. It's worser than going to college from 8a.m. to 6p.m. while having 6 hours of psych lectures.

We, meaning Kexin and I...plus Kexin's friends, lined up at the space next to Green Box karaoke, Sungei Wang since 10a.m. If I didn't get lost on the way there, we would've arrived earlier, but that's besides the point. The line was really long when we got there, there were about a hundred people in front of us. But really, we were pretty lucky because if we would've came at about 12p.m., the line would've been 500m away from the counter. Surprisingly, the crowd had absolutely anyone from anywhere inside...we had guys, parents, Malays, Chinese, Thais..etc. We could spot a few students cutting class.

Okay..so while waiting, we talked about random stuffs until about 11.30a.m. and the counter was still not opened. Note: it was supposed to start selling at 11a.m. Alright, we waited some more, since most Malaysians are naturally late. At about 12p.m., the first customer who came at about 6a.m. got her tickets and I'm telling you, everyone was staring at her. So at about that time, the counter finally came into sight and the line was like, compressed together. We were thinking, now the tickets will sell smoothly...we would all get our tickets and be back home for lunch. Wrong! After the first batch of tickets, we had to wait like 30 minutes before the second batch came out. Every few tickets they sell, we have to wait about 15 minutes. At first it was bearable...up until about 2p.m., it was starting to feel like pure torture. So, what did we do during those agonizing hours of waiting that we weren't allowed to sit? We naturally talked...with strangers around us. Questions like, "Who's your favorite member?" or "Which seats are you buying?" started to fly about the space.

As if it wasn't torturing already, at about 3p.m., one of the staff there shouted, "Whoever that wants to buy RM458 tickets..line up here!!" while standing in front of a new counter. So, what did the individualistic and I'm almost sure, a little crazy on the head from the waiting, fans do? They broke from the line and started rushing over to the new counter, regardless of whatever or whoever standing in between...kids, bugs, everything that's too tiny to fend for itself/himself/herself got squashed. Kexin told me to go over too. I wanted to, originally...and thank God I had the mind to actually stop and think for a moment. Because I almost got squashed in the stampede as well. It was crazy messy! They even opened the barrier between the newcomers outside and those already lined up inside. It was pretty unfair that they did, because then all that lining up would've been in vain. Then they mentioned that they're still going by numbers, so I slowly walked up to the line and fit myself into the line.

It turns out that the reason why they're so painfully slow is that they print every single ticket on that day itself. It's made to order. Plus, they only have one counter with one laptop and one cute little printer. Note: they run out of ink quite often hence, the waiting. Oh noo...they couldn't open a few more counters or better yet, open a few spots at other malls. They weren't understaffed at all...they had these guys telling us not to push, sit on the floor and basically just order us around. Oh, did I mention the name of the amateur company? It's Marctensia, the same people that organized Beyonce's canceled concert, but still won't admit to it and the ones that paid a seven figure amount to fight for SS501's concert. According to Sinyi, the founder was some betrayer of Galaxie but noobs will be noobs. Oh nooo..it's not Super Junior or even SM's fault at all..it's the event organizer's fault.

So, I got the RM458 tickets at around 4p.m. but I can't go just yet...I still have to go back to the original line to get the other tickets. At that point, you can already see the fatigue in everyone's eyes. I was half expecting someone to pass out from the waiting, then it will appear on NTV7 Prime Time News. Kexin looked like she was going to faint. It was 4p.m., we didn't get any breakfast or lunch and we weren't allowed to sit long...I was getting really irritated. So, I said what came into mind, "Super Junior or no Super Junior, the concert better be good or I'll boo them from the audience!" and "Screw Super Junior! I'm going to 2PM!". I dissed Marctensia loudly from the line as well. Yeah, I was really, reaaalllyyy annoyed. When we finally reach the front lines, we were all half-dead, ate some bread and had a little water but still, emotionally tired.

When we got our tickets, it was already 5.40p.m. and we said goodbyes to our new friends. Right, the parking price was RM 12.10. It's expected but still cheaper than the parking rate at HELP. So, the point of this whole post is to say that I waited 7 hours and 40 minutes to get 6 sheets of paper. First and probably the last experience of waiting in line for tickets. Oh, and they bribed us with posters. They said that the first 500 tickets would receive 'free' giant posters. In my mind, it isn't free at all..it's the result of laboring for 7 hours. I treated my poor body with Bak Kut Teh. It was good...to finally eat a proper hot meal. Yeah, I'm definitely going to write, "Oppa! I waited 7 hours and 40 minutes for you~" on my Super Junior banner.

The past will always catch up with you...

2010-01-14T23:52:00.005+08:00

I had a pretty sad two years of secondary school life before I met Jesus. Contrary to popular belief, a person like me did have crushes. To those who think I am a nerd, I don't study everyday at home and I do a lot of things teenagers do. Yeah...so, a few years back, I had this really huge crush that practically ruled my life. I was so obsessive, I did crazy, silly little things that shouldn't be revealed...EVER!

We take the same classes at night tuition classes. The first time I saw him, I thought I had that thing they call, love at first sight. At that time, I seriously saw light bestow upon him...and all that surreal stuff. I kept obsessing over it to the point that it's a form of worship. Yeaa..I have those really, really embarrassing diary entries on it too. Those 13 year old, immature ones. I still have them...and every time I look at them..I feel like burning them to ashes, then spread the ashes in the South China Sea. What keeps me back is that I want to remember how I changed from that person to this person now.

When I came to know Christ, I eventually realized that this 'hobby' of mine is really unhealthy and wrong. So, either I get to know him or I take a hike. Being the person with low self-esteem that I was, I decided to forget everything. I cried and it was really not worth it. It's not even a relationship, come on! After that...I just concentrated on my studies and yeah, here I am! I think I learned a lot from that. I learned to love myself better and not blind myself to what's obvious around me.

Through some connections, I recently found his Facebook account and I checked it out. It's been years since I last saw him. He changed a lot and I kept asking myself why did I ever like him anyway? He's not even that good-looking or nice. Wow...that light back then must've been really bright. It's all I can do to not slap myself on the face right now for being so stupid. Here's a tip, slap yourself right now on the face so you can spare regret later on when you feel like you've done something stupid, but you can't turn back time. Sigh...Taeyang's Wedding Dress so suit my mood right now. Unrequited love...haha!

I'm spending my last day of 2009...

2009-12-31T16:59:00.003+08:00

by taking care of my dog. I let June out last night and she ate rat poison, lots of it. The pest controller came yesterday and put up these pesticides and rodenticides. I didn't know, so I let her out. We're not too sure if she did eat them or maybe she just hid them in her little treasure holes. My brother was the one that saw her chewing on some dark red tablets. If she can eat rat poison, why can't she eat veges?? Seriously!

So, I gave her a shower in the bathroom this morning to get rid of the clumps of shit stuck to her hair. Then, we brought her to the vet. I couldn't hold her because I had a traumatic experience when I was 10 years old. It was raining heavily and I, being the little brat I am...went and pat her head. She instantly took a bite at me. It didn't hurt much but it bled and after that, I would not hold her anymore.

The vet took her temperature from her butt and took a blood sample from her paw. She wouldn't let the vet touch her much so we had to resolve to a muzzler. It was so sad to see her tearing up and trying to escape. The vet told us that she might have breast cancer. Just when we thought our problems are solved, another came up. We have to observe her and check for lumps.

She's just like any dog, excited and happy during the car ride. We even opened the window to let the wind blow through her hair. I thought she was gonna come out and terrorize the whole KL city when we let her out at the pet store. I prayed that no one will come and pat her head or play with her. Surprisingly, she was pretty calm and okay with it. Just a bit curious here and there. I think she just needs freedom to cure her violence. I blame myself for not training her and letting her out more often.

We were given meds to feed her with. First was the charcoal tablets, which I had to resolve to crushing and cooking it with meatballs. I was afraid she won't eat it, so I put in a lot of garlic, pepper and dried basil. My brother scold me for cooking it because it might not work as well after cooking. He kept saying how June won't see year 2010 and if she dies, it's my fault. Even my mum was like, let's give June away, I'll but you a new dog. But I don't wanna! I want June! She's my first pet.

I still remember when we got her 10 years ago. I was dragging around this toy dog, thinking it's real. My brother and sister were laughing at me. Dad saw us and he flipped through the Yellow Pages to find a dog for us. As little kids exposed to a lot of Disney, we naturally wanted a dalmatian. But dalmatians aren't easy to take care of. So, dad found this owner that wanted to sell off a few of his dog's pups. My memory of it was that the road was called 'Jalan Ayer Panas' and there were a lot of pups, June's siblings...all inside this really long cage. Most of the pups had red eyebags, June was the only one without. But now, after not taking good care of her, she developed her own eyebags. So, we took June home in a paper box lined with newspapers. She wouldn't stop shitting in the car and it smelled like milk. When we arrived home, she kept barking in that screechy tone. She was so tiny and followed us wherever we went. Sigh...if only we took better care of her and trained her.

My hope for next year is that June would be alright.

Breaking News!

2009-11-27T11:23:00.006+08:00

Crashed Jazzy yesterday. When I drove out of HELP, cars are supposed to wait at the side before heading to the main road. I couldn't see the cars speeding on the right side. When I saw them, I braked immediately and the cab behind me crashed into Jazzy. It felt like when a roller coaster picks up speed except that this is in one jerky shot. I prayed that this would be okay.

Pressed on the emergency button and got down the car. The guy got down too and we were inspecting the damage. His cab just lost the 'H' on the number plate. Jazzy? Not that bad...but I still feel the pain. I've heard a lot of stories from my mum and sister about them getting into accidents and how they deal with the other person. But at that moment, I really don't know what to say. So, I asked him "So how? Are you going to pay me?" Straightforward and to the point. He looked like he was thinking deeply and didn't answer me at first. Then he said, "50 can or not?" In shock, I replied, "Are you serious? Look at this, (pointing to the sensor) this is obviously gone! (I remembered about how my sister crashed at the same spot and apparently car sensors are very sensitive)" He looked pretty frustrated then he asked me again, this time in Cantonese, "50 can or not?" Then I finally understood that he didn't understand a single thing I said from the beginning. Right, from then onwards, I talked with him in Cantonese. Bless my grandma's soul for teaching me Cantonese.

The cab passenger got down and asked if he should get another cab while we deal with this. I think he's American and was dressed rather professionally. I was half hoping that he was rushing in time, so he would pay me instead and in large amounts too. Yeah, that didn't happen. The cabbie in desperation asked me to follow him to KL Sentral while he dropped his customer off. I agreed and got back in the car. The whole trip there, I was so afraid that he would trick me and speed off. I jot down his car plate number and handphone number.

The passenger gave me a meaningful look when he was dropped off. The look kinda says, "Poor you" or it could mean "Poor me" Anyway, the cabbie signaled me to follow him. We parked at the side of the road and continue dealing with it. To cut things short, he called his sister and she gave me directions to go to this car workshop all the way in Damansara Utama. I had no idea where it was. I only knew how to go to Eastin Hotel. Beyond that, it's slightly blurry but bless Carmen's soul for bringing me to her house in Tropicana a couple of times.

Yeah, like my usual self, I got lost a couple of times. I crashed at 4.30pm, Left KL Sentral at 5.30pm and arrived at the destination at 6.50pm. To spare you the pain, I will only say that there was a lot of calling for directions, getting honked at and traffic jam. Called my brother to inform him about this. He scolded me, saying how unlucky I am. Then I said I'll call him back later.

The person at the workshop gave me directions to this other workshop which I was supposed to arrive at 6pm. He clearly asked me to wait at the first Shell station I see. I gave him my number and he said he'll call me. So, I waited there...for an hour. I told myself that I was gonna call back the cabbie's sister to reconfirm to which I later learn her name was Shereen but I saved her number as 'Sista'. I waited for 30 minutes and I still hadn't called, maybe I was afraid of interrupting her and I tried to convince myself that they'll call me soon enough. Soon, images of them tricking me to come all the way to Damansara so they can run off, came into my head. Then I persuaded myself that if it was like that, then they wouldn't have went through the hassle at all. Shereen called me, asking if I have transport home. I said I'm still waiting at the Shell station. She was shocked and told me that she'll call the workshop people to ask. Called me back later to tell me that it was a miscommunication. They thought that I was going to go there on another day...but what other day? Yeah, I don't know. I didn't even have the workshop's number. I prayed in the car that this whole thing will just end. I will be healthy again, everything will be okay. I told God that I'm tired and can't take this anymore. He heard me.

So, Shereen sent a guy to guide me back to the first workshop so they can keep my car and fix it tomorrow. It was 8.30pm, I was sick with cough, flu and just recovered from fever yesterday. I was waiting for Shereen to send me to 1 Utama where my brother's waiting for me. Everytime I cough, I feel my left lung is going to collapse. Worst cough ever. It didn't help that when I was having fever yesterday, I still went to college because my lecturer won't let me go home.

Anyhow, I tried imagining how Shereen actually looks like through all that phone calls. I imagined her to be motherly and slightly plump. Not stereotyping here, but plump ladies give me this happy, protective, motherly image. I was right. She kinda looks like Lillian Too. With the finely plucked eyebrows and Chinese look. I got into her Altis and she was listening to Fly fm. Woah!

I called my brother to pick me up to which he was kinda reluctant so, I offered to take the train home. He came to pick me up anyway. Hah! I know he's a loving brother behind that thick computer-player shell.

During the whole ride, Shereen was lecturing me like a mother. She said I shouldn't trust people so easily that I'm lucky to have met people like them. Next time when I meet with an accident again (touch wood), I should call for help from family members or friends, preferably male. I shouldn't put my car overnight at some unknown car workshop with some unknown people who just crashed my car. There are a lot of dangerous cases in newspapers these days. I shouldn't put my laptop in the car, should take it everywhere I go. She asked about my name, where I study, how old I am, where do I live..we had a nice little talk.

While waiting for my brother to come, we waited at her sister in-law's shop and I felt as though she just let me into her life. She's a nice lady, no doubt. I think she was nice to me because she has a daughter which surprisingly studies at HELP too. I felt like helping them in the shop but I know that they'll just refuse.

My brother came and she sent me to meet him so at least my brother knows that he can trust them. The trip home was quiet but nice. When I told my brother the whole thing, I laughed at his comment when I mentioned about how Shereen lectured me. He said, "Oh! She's a lecturer?"

I had a long, long day. I skipped the Thanksgiving dinner because I was sick and needed rest so I left college at 4.30pm. In the end, I was still sick but didn't get any rest till 10pm. Things life throws at you is amazing. Maybe this is God teaching me not to trust people so easily. I'm just thankful that the car that crashed into mine belongs to a nice person. How great is it that all this happened during Thanksgiving? I guess we can always find something to be thankful for even through bad times.

My paranoid self

2009-11-24T21:49:00.010+08:00

First of all, I scratched Jazzy. I'm so sorry, to whoever that feels the pain. It's a funny story, really.

As it is every single day, HELP parking lot is full of cars, double-parked and all. But I reached at 2pm (Again & Again~), when there are available parking spots but there are double-parked cars that came earlier, blocking the road.

When I was turning the corner to find a parking spot, I was in a hurry so I drove right between these two double-parked cars. One was this Kelisa with someone inside. It kinda was my fault because I think he was trying to drive past me but I drove through. But then again, it was a one way street. Mind you, I was going the right way.

So, I scratched this Proton Iswara on my left side that has no one in it. At first I didn't realize until the car began to screech and the Proton began to shake a little. I was paranoid...so I just drove front to end the pain. I did what any 18 year old with a P license would do, I sped away.

I found a parking spot, quickly ran down to check on the damage, all the time praying it's not bad. It was pretty bad...in my opinion. There's two really bad long scratches and a small dent (barely recognizable from a distance).

I felt so bad that I instantly called my mum to confess. She wasn't even paying attention, telling me "Yeah, I know...kakak told me you left the fried rice at home." (Like I would call her to tell her that!) Then I kept repeating over and over again, "I scratched the car..!" She asked me, "Har? How come? Is it bad? How much is the person asking for?" The instant when I said, "No...it's a parked car...no one was inside." she calmed down and replied, "Oh..then ok lah. Come back only talk lah."

I had my persuasive speech that day and couldn't concentrate during Moral class either. The whole scene kept repeating in my head all the time. I was going crazy until my friends started to verbally slap me across the face. Okay, I was pretty paranoid about the whole thing. It's not like I've never scratched a car before, but this was the worst case.

Anyway, public speaking lecturer pretty moody because we weren't prepared for speech but on the bright side, I presented and although it wasn't my best, I got okay marks. I really don't care..as long as I can go back to rest.

Then today, I've got a pretty bad case of coughing. I kept saying that I have TB, lung infection, asthma...all that. My friends had to verbally slap me again but the coughing didn't get any better. The bak kut teh I had for dinner didn't help either. I have SOS (Special Occasion Speech or as my friend would say, Suck Our Souls) for Public Speaking

tomorrow. Tomorrow is also the day that we have been preparing for 12 weeks now...Science Fair. Now, I didn't put any hope on winning with our common project but at least get good marks for our course le. Gonna do a lot of talking tomorrow.

Sigh..lots of driving to do these days. Don't really like driving people around no more. But then, it saves petrol. Hmm...gonna pray some more!! Aja~!

My Saskwatch Hair (before combing)

5 hours

2009-11-17T11:06:00.004+08:00

Hee...getting the hype for posting. Hopefully it'll last.

Gahh!! I want my Hong Kong Wantan Mee~!

Supposed to go to Macau and HK with parents next week. Because of the Science Fair, I can't bring myself to go.

Tuesdays is the most boring of days for me. I come to college at 8am then go back at 5.30 pm for only two classes with 5 hours break in between. What do I do? Assignments...they never end.

Wanted to go home for lunch considering that I'm broke. But no...I had to join the Peer Mentoring Program and meet every alternate Tuesdays. It's fun to let go of my stress sometimes. But it's tiring too...I don't like the fact that they treat us like patients.

Hey! You know what? I signed up to be a mentor, not a mentee. I thought it'll be fun~ Getting a junior to bully around. It's all just a facade. Telling us that we'll be mentoring people when in fact they're recruiting guinea pigs for their graduate studies.

Should've seen that coming...

Where's my brain gone to..?

2009-11-16T21:45:00.004+08:00

Ahh...I'm so forgetful these days. Just this afternoon after class, I went to Midvalley/Gardens with Sinyi and Ronnie. I forgot where I parked. We had to pace from one end of the mall to the other until my brain comes back. Luckily I parked at Gardens. Just imagine what would've happened if it was Midvalley or worse...1 Utama.

It happened again when I took a shower. You see...when I shower, I have these steps that I follow;

1. Shampoo hair

2. Body shower

3. Wash away soap

4. Condition hair

5. Wash face

6. Wash hair

By the time I reached step 4, I was thinking, "Did I wash use the body shower already?"

Ooo...It's my sister, Alex's and KYeng's birthday today. Was racking my brains on what to get for Alex. It's between an electric guitar and a sweater. Dad said no need to get anything because we're gonna visit her soon. Got something for KYeng though. If you're reading this right now, I hope you like itt~!

Just some random thoughts:

1. The weather right now is horrible! I hate the cold. Almost every single person I tell this to disagrees with me. They say it's a nice weather to sleep in. Well, I think warm weathers are nicer to sleep in. Like an egg incubator...all nice and warm and fuzzy. Heee...just thinking about it makes me wanna sleep. Who's with me in this?? Goooo...Camp Incubator!!

2. I hate blow drying my hair...and if you know me well, you would know that I sometimes wish to shave my head bald and just wear wigs for the rest of my life.

3. When I have time, I'm gonna talk to every single person that's online on MSN. Some friends, I just don't know where I picked up from....Gunbound? Habbo? Maple Story?

4. I don't like how Singaporeans and Malaysian have been competing with each other for decades. Who has the best popiah, otak-otak...all that stuff. Who cares!? As long as we get to eat them...

5. Ohhh yeaahhh....I'm following item #1 on my list pretty well. This is post #2 of this week. Booyah!

SUJU Banzai~!

Boom Baby!

2009-11-15T14:59:00.003+08:00

Hah! I'm back! I killed my blog and resurrected it from the death! Hopefully I can update once a week from now onwards. Even when I'm super tired, I'm gonna at least post up a few photos like a photo diary. This is so typical me...committing to new things then give up halfway. I'm gonna change that!! Lord, help me...

Was it Enough?

2009-09-30T10:33:00.002+08:00

Will I see granny in heaven? I know I will see her again...but will we spend our days together with God? Did she really accept Christ? Did I do enough for her?

This morning I woke up with Muse's Starlight playing. Replied Sue's message and went to the loo. I saw my parents' bedroom door open. That's weird...Dad said he will only go out at 12pm today. What's weirder is that my mum who usually wakes up at 9am is not in bed. Even my maid's not at home. I have a bad feeling.

Called my mum. She said nonchalantly, "Passed away already..." I knew it was coming. Just thinking about it I thought I will cry my heart out. I didn't. I just crawled back into bed and cried a little. I can't help wondering if she really did accept Christ in her heart. I texted my sister about it and tried sleeping again. She called me an hour later, asking about the funeral date. She asked me to go to YAflame blog to read her post.

I wonder if my sister and I are the only ones who care about Granny's death. Maybe not. Mum was acting pretty nasty today. She snapped at me because of simple matters. Dad was pretty cool about it. To the extent of calling my grandma's death a migration when announcing it to our relatives. He was sitting on the chair beside me just now...staring into space. For that 5 minutes, he actually seemed like a little boy, wondering where his mummy is.

I was looking at some photos just now..when I was a little baby. I was really close to granny. I took a lot of photos with her. I will always remember the things she always told me...the legacy she left for her family.

I did it

2009-09-26T20:54:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, I didn't visit my grandma. I was at the zoo whole day, letting out all my worries by laughing. I was probably at my craziest yesterday for a some time. My friends most likely thought I was okay. Maybe I was okay. That whole day, I just put aside my problems and focused on working with the animals. When I came back, my maid told me grandma's condition has worsen. The doctor's giving her 3-4 days more to live. I didn't know what to say. I just told my mum we're going to visit her tomorrow. In my mind, I just told myself it's time to just tell her the truth before it's too late. I slept like a log...resting without a care in the world.

This morning, I told God that I'll fast and pray today...to show my faith. I wanted to fast before but it was hard without letting anyone know. Went on a Milo and water only diet whole day until dinner time. After that, I went for the Peer Mentoring Training Program. Couldn't find a parking spot and all...too much frustration for a Saturday morning. I just kept telling myself that I should be good to others, then maybe grandma would feel better.

I came back and slept some more. Woke up and went to the hospital alone. Maybe it was God's plan...it was time for the real thing. After rehearsing the gospel in Cantonese last night, I told it to my grandma. She couldn't speak, you see. So, every time I told her something, she just groaned or frowned. I kept repeating to her that "You must believe that Jesus is God!!" She tried talking but I don't understand. I told her that I may not understand what she's saying, but God does. I didn't know what more to do...so I just repeated John 3:16 in Cantonese and read the Bible to her in English. Suddenly, I remembered about how the disciples spoke in tongues which only God knows how to interpret but surprisingly, each person in the crowd around them heard their own language being spoken. So, I just spoke in tongues, hoping she can understand and God too, can speak to her.

Going through this, I sometimes wished that the whole world would just stop. Because she's in pain, I feel as if I shouldn't be happy. I feel like everyone should just stop and look around them. I know it's wrong for me to hope for that. Just grab every chance you have, you don't know when's the last chance you'll ever get. Like what a someone great once said, "Don't put off till tomorrow what you can do today."

Guilt

2009-09-23T23:52:00.002+08:00

So much have happened. I might be facing yet another funeral. It's just that this time, I would really cry for a long time. She was like a mother to me in so many ways. My biological mum worked to feed us while she stayed at home to take care of us. We had lots of fun, from doing homework together and cooking to taking long afternoon naps. I loved those moments together. Then I got older and somehow distanced myself from her. I had other stuffs to do that seemed more important at that time. Now that I look back, it's not worth sacrificing all the precious time we could've shared.

She was always there, in her room resting. I had so many chances to talk to her about the gospel. Her health got worse, my mum had to send her to the nursing home because we each had something to do. When we visited her, she always wanted to go home, saying how she feels more comfortable at home. She was right, staying at the nursing home with no one to talk to really brings a new definition to boredom. I told myself that I would visit her more often, now that it's so critical. Something always come into the picture, holding me back.

You know, I've always had this dream that my whole family would stand by my side, worshipping the Lord with me. We would speak in tongues together and the Lord would smile at us. I would always experience indescribable joy just by imagining it. It's time for me to grow up. For three years, I learned so much about Christianity...watched brothers and sisters in Christ around me building bridges to Him while I'm still reading the "Dummies Guide to Bridge Construction". I always hid under my sister's shadow. Watch her fight our wars. She sharpened my blade, strapped me with the best shields. I just let them rust over at the corner of my mind. It's time to stand at the front lines now.

The devil knows what buttons to push to make me doubt God's power. Everyone says it's not my fault. I know it's not my fault and yet whenever I think about it, it makes me cry and fear for the worst. You know how we always hear people tell us not to make promises we can't keep? Well, I heard it from God Himself. I know of it and try to keep that rule in mind all the time. It's just on that very day, I forgot about it entirely. I held her hand and told her that I'll be back that night to keep her company. I didn't keep that promise. She looked forward to seeing me and I didn't come. The next morning she was admitted into the hospital because of a stroke. According to my mum, she told the doctor that we don't want her no more, that we dumped her at the nursing home. I wanted to go to her, to say I'm sorry. In my mind I always thought I had more time. That it's okay to go tomorrow. I'm going to see her tomorrow but would she really be there?

She always had a bad impression on my sister. I was always the 'good one' that got influenced by my sister to go into Christianity, which to her, is bad. If only she knew of the truth. So many of my relatives died not knowing God. Now, one of my closest family members is about to go. Now, I will fight. Fight for the soul of my loved ones. I will no longer be a parasite. Pray for me...

Scary~

2009-08-31T18:03:00.004+08:00

People, be careful in the internet world! There are creepy people out there. Just today some guy stalked me on MSN. I think he got my e-mail address from blogger or some other social network I joined. Oh yeah, that reminds me, don't join unnecessary social networks that you don't use at all. It's useless and dangerous. People can use your details and stalk your friends too!

Okay, so yeah, this guy got me on MSN and started chatting with me. I asked him where he got my e-mail address. He said he don't know. How can you not know where you get the e-mail addresses you add on MSN? I thought, it's alright to make new friends. Then he asked me how old am I and I was married and all that crap. I just answered to be friendly. Then he asked to add me on Facebook. So yeah, this is where it gets stalkerish.

He asked for my id. I said, just search for my e-mail address on Fb. Maybe he don't get it but he said he didn't have time to search. I told him I don't know what is my MSN id because I thought the e-mail is the id. He said I was lying in a lame jokey kinda way. Then I offered to add him. He gave me his 'id', which is the e-mail. I snapped at him saying that my id is the e-mail!! He finally got it. Sent me a request. Told me on MSN that he wants to know how I look like and how many friends I have. Which is not normal. Go see a trained professional, dude! (Okay, I just realized I'm training to be a psychologist. What if he comes to see me for psychological help!?)

Yeah, then I just told him if he's looking for a relationship, I'm not interested. He got it and all but I think he secretly wants a relationship. I honestly told him that he's making me uncomfortable with all his weird questions. He was like, "no, never!" My last words to him were, "I hope you have a happy life." Then I blocked him.

Just to be safe, I googled my name, my e-mail address and my mobile number to see if there are websites that he can get access to my private info. That's when I got to know that Friendster deleted my account. Considering I didn't sign in for almost a year now. That's beside the point. The point of me writing this post is to warn all of you the dangers of putting your private info on the net. And don't chat with strangers! I'm such a hypocrite here because I'm hooked on Omegle now. But you don't have to get an account on Omegle, so it's safe as long as you don't reveal any important info to the stranger. Yeah, and I realized he might know my blogger account and it's here that I have a lot of links to my friends. Be careful you guys and seriously, don't get too friendly with strangers. Just to be safe, his e-mail address is mausam_******@hotmail.com (Yeah, I don't wanna ruin his image on the internet). He's human too. Just ask me lah, if you think your stranger has a familiar e-mail address with this one.

I've never felt so alone before...

2009-08-30T14:00:00.002+08:00

In my 18 years of life, I've never felt so alone before. In fact, I loved being left alone most of the time. Maybe it's because I'm in between so many things and people right now, I don't really have a fixed group of people that I always hang around. There is always the awkward moment. I hate introducing myself to new people and having to get through that (which I'm still trying to) to become great friends. Or maybe it's because of what my sister has with Jessica that I feel I should have too.

I don't have that one person on earth that I can turn to every single time I have something to share. God says to love your neighbours as you love yourself. I'm trying my best to do that but I wonder if others around me are. It's sad but sometimes I imagine myself in a situation where my friends have to choose between myself and my other friends. Who would they pick? Most of the time it won't be me. It's like in school where we have to pick people to join our group project. I'm the one that got left out and the teacher has to stuff me somewhere else.

I'm not someone that stands out in the crowd, but a person that tries to hide away from attention most of the time. I want a friend that I can depend on every single time. Who won't bail out when I need him/her the most. Who understands me when I don't have to say a word at all. One that I know will always care for me. That won't judge me in what I do. Basically, what Jesus is to me. A mentor and a friend. It's hard to find one but I pray that God will grant me this wish.

Sometimes I think my family members are here for that but because they have to. Most of the time I put my friends first before my family but where does that get me? I don't know. People always want something from other people. That's how the world teaches us to survive. This post may have hurt my friends but please, don't feel that way. Because I still love you guys no matter what and I'll be there when you need me. I just hope that sometimes you can do the same for me too.

I'm gonna be Moses

2009-08-17T22:47:00.002+08:00

Well, she's finally gone

She taught me to love Coldplay

Called me a fatty and a dummy

Which is party true

She influenced every part of my life

How my favorite color is purple

How I like watching people cook

How I speak and write

Lots of people were there at the airport

I can't help but wonder

If I will have that many people sending me off when I go

Church friends praying with me

Friends hugging and crying with me

Family that just stands there waiting for me when I need them

I still couldn't believe she's gone

That's probably why I didn't cry while sending her off

I cried in the car though

Thinking how I'd be the only Christian in the family

Who would be with me through all my father's objections now?

I won't feel bad not doing my devotionals daily now

I know that's not a good thing

She introduced me to my life

All of it God's great plan

I am envious of what she have with Jessica

I want someone I can tell everything to

Apart from God, that is

Having a human friend on earth is just different

I do have friends...just not ones that I feel understand me

I wonder how it feels...to open up to someone

Letting someone know everything little detail of my life

No boundaries, just bridges

That's why I'm gonna take my chance in everything

I'm gonna have better fellowship

Yesterday's me is gone

I surrendered my life to God

He's gonna live my life now

And I know God wants a united body of Christ

So, I'm gonne be Moses

I have to do God's will and trust in Him

I lost my Aaron

She's my mentor

My friend

My sister

But I'm gonna live on

Knowing she's in a better place now

Going after what she's supposed to do

See you next year, 언니!!

Leeteuk Sim

2009-07-23T21:22:00.005+08:00

I know I haven't been updating for a very long time. Here are some brief updates:

1) Turned 18 and my wish was to be able to walk again.

2) Am able to walk again but not much bending.

3) Rewatching FRIENDS (seriously, to those who haven't watched i

t yet, you don't know what you're missing).

4) Oh and yeah, Super Junior's coming to Malaysia. At least, that's what Leeteuk said in the Super Show 2 press conference.

5) I'm learning Korean. So far, I know how to introduce myself and say goodbye. Korean is easy to write but hard to pronounce. But it's fun, to learn a new language.

6) And this post is actually to introduce you guys to my new friend, Leeteuk Sim!!

When I first created him, he didn't look much alike Leeteuk. But slowly, he does look a teeny bit like him. I couldn't get the hair right, though. The Sims 3 only offers a limited array of hairstyles. Creating his eyes and mouth was a pain!! I wonder how will the real Leeteuk react to his Sim character when he sees it.

KYAAA!!! MY TEUKIE~

2009-07-10T18:47:00.002+08:00

If you haven't heard about it already, my handphone got snatched today. I was on the train going back with a few friends. As usual, the train was packed because of rush hour. When I finally got in with some pushing and squirming, I felt my pockets and it was empty. I thought, maybe it's hidden in my bag or something, but no. I asked Kexin to call my phone and she got through, someone answered but then hung up. Then she tried again but it was switched off.

I knew this day will come...surprisingly, I didn't freak out. Just a little heartache because now my new teukie keychain, my sim card contacts and all my songs and pictures inside are gone. AND TODAY! OF ALL DAYS HE/SHE HAVE TO SNATCH IT TODAY! HEECHULIE'S BIRTHDAY TODAY SHOULD BE GOOD DAY!!

Honestly, if I know who stole it, I will jump on him/her and snatch my phone back. I won't curse or say anything....I'll just snatch it back and leave. My mum and brother didn't make things better either. When I called my mum to tell her about this, she just nagged me about not taking care of my phone and how my pockets were not deep enough. When I came home, I thought I can at least get some sympathy from my brother...but no! He had to rub salt, pepper and cili padi into my wound. He said (In Cantonese); "Hah! You deserved it. Who ask you to wear pants like that!? Those pockets are not deep enough." Oh..my heart!! My Teukie~

Adventure

2009-06-25T23:52:00.004+08:00

I'm getting sick these days. Had the flu, then sprained my leg, then got a jab for Hepatitis A and now...getting a headache from God know's what. It might have been the infection in my pierced ear that got my equilibrium all off. It's been almost two months since I've pierced my ears and it's not getting any better. I'm giving up on it...just gonna take it out and let it heal. I'm keeping my ears, thank you very much.

Yeah, maybe this is a way my body and God is trying to tell me to surrender and let it all go. All my worries and pain, just throw it away. I'm considering on going on a long trip. Like when I have my month long holiday next month, I might go on a trip somewhere quiet and just be on my own and relax. I don't wanna go some touristy place, just me, the sun and the beach. No phones, no internet, no connection to the world. I think if I get too used to that life, I wouldn't wanna come back anymore. I feel like just wandering around the world with the clothes on my back and just face each day as it is. No strings attached. God will provide for me. It's like being a disciple of God. I just do what He asks me to do. No more struggling to get an A or getting a job or getting married or having kids. Just God and myself.

p.s: Getting tired of worldy things; money, celebrities...

p.p.s: I hope I grow up fast, then I can go on a trip by myself.

God is good

2009-06-08T17:34:00.011+08:00

Warning: This post may very well be the longest I've ever written. So, seat back, relax, grab a snack and read on~

I DID IT!

Where do I begin? Well, it took me about 6 months to get my driving license. From the five hours seminar to my practical test this afternoon. It's approximately 6 months.

We promised each other, a promise never kept. We started together, took our first steps in driving. We meet at a junction. There were two ways, one to the left, another to the right. They speed ahead. I went to the right, alone, or so I thought. In the darkness, I was weighed down by my ego. I fell down twice and was laughed at. How stupid can I be? He held out His hand to me but I pushed it away.

I was tired, tired of falling down. When they tell me that I failed, my heart fell down. I kept thinking, "It's okay to fail, I still have another chance." But no, it's not okay. We do not settle for mediocrity!! I hoped, for someone to save me. It felt like someone pushed me into the deeper end of the pool and I was drowning but no one came to lift me up. And then He came... He fished me up. He says, "Nothing is impossible with me. I fed five thousand people, walked on water, drove out demons, died and rose again. Why do you worry? Do not worry about tomorrow as I am always with you." All at once, everything was clear to me. I only asked once, for He said, "Ask and you shall receive."

It was definitely a miracle. I was waiting for my turn to drive this afternoon. I was number one on the list, scary, but I had to face it anyway. I kept replaying how I would drive later, how I failed twice before this. Thoughts of bribing and of failing kept coming into my head. Voices telling me to just bribe, because if I failed again, it would be an embarrasment and it would be torture to dissapoint my parents and go through this all over again. But I kept rebuking these thoughts in the name of Jesus. I brought my Bible and read to myself the word of God and sang praises to Him. Finally, it was my turn;

Instructor: See Tho Wai Siong.

Me: (waving my hands) Ya.

Ins: (talking with another guy) Mana orang Cina itu? Saya suruh dia baiki itu air-cond satu jam lepas. Mana kereta itu sekarang?

Guy: (calling the 'orang cina') Mana kereta itu? Omar nak cakap dengan awak. Datang sekarang.

OC: (smiles) Ah...saya letak kereta itu di sana....(mumbles)

Ins: Saya tadi pukul satu suruh awak baiki itu air-con, sekarang dah pukul dua, masih belum siap! Awak selalu pergi main-main saja! Awak tak baiki itu air-con saya akan mati dalam kereta!

OC: (persuading)

Ins: Saya tak nak test dah! Awak pergi ambilkan kereta untuk saya!

Me: (mouth open "What about me?? I'm doomed!!")

Ins: (smoking cigarette)

Me: (singing in my heart 'How Great is Our God' "As cheesy as this is, it is the only thing that I can do to calm down my nerves.")

OC: (drove a new car down)

Ins: Ini kereta siapa? You main ambik saja ke!?

OC: Ahh...ambil dulu la..

Ins: Pergi tanya dulu siapa punya kereta.

-After going into the office for a while-

Ins: (waving at me to come)

Me: (get everything ready...last minute, forgot to put on the seatbelt)

Ins: Pakai seatbelt dulu

Me: Ahm....(put on seatbelt)

Ins: Ah Moi, dah boleh jalan

-Arrive at the junction, behind the white line-

Ins: Jalan...cepat sikit.

Me: Ahh? Bukan kena stop dan brek sebelum garisan putih ke?

Ins: Takpe, takpe..jalan saje.

Me: Ahh...okay.

Ins: Cepat-cepat sikit. You superman ma! Kena pergi cepat-cepat (singing superman theme song) ("LOL! I was wearing my Superman shirt. Thought it will give me confidence.")

Me: (laughs) Ah...kenapa dah tukar masa ujian kepada tengahari ah? Sebelum ni kan masa pagi?

Ins: Ya ke? Awak dari pagi tunggu sampai sekarang ke?

Me: Ahh? Tak la...instructor saya dah inform. Saya tanya saja.

Ins: Office nak tukar.

Me: Em...

Ins: Pergi sebelah kanan sikit. Tekan minyak banyak banyak.

Me: Ahh? Tapi instructor ajar saya turun bukit kena tekan brek.

Ins: Nanti you dah pass, masih dengar cakap instructor ke?

Me: Ahh..tak. (laughs)

Ins: Ah...tak payah stop, terus saja! Ahh...U-turn kat sini, signal dulu. Cepat-cepat pusing, tekan minyak sikit. ("practically teaching me how to drive")

Me: (just followed him)

Ins: Ah...susur saja. Tekan minyak lagi.

Me: Ahh...okay. ("very unsure, might trick me and fail me")

Ins: Kenapa? Pergi cepat-cepat takut ke?

Me: Ahh...sikit-sikit la. ("I was going around 60km/h, the speed they set for us was 40km/h to 50km/h.")

Ins: Nanti you pandu sendiri pun kena cepat ma.

Me: Ahh...ye la, saya pun kena pandu kereta ke kolej di KL.

Ins: Ah..ye la! Tak boleh bergantung pada parents hantar you ke sekolah ma.

Me: Ahh...ye la.

Ins: You letak anting-anting ke? (looking at my ears)

Me: Ahh..ye la. Sakit oh...dah lebam.

Ins: Oh..ya ke?

Me: Ye la...ada darah. ("LOL! I was nervous...just crap whatever comes into my mind.")

-This lorry in front of me turned eventhough it was red- I didn't know, so, I followed-

Ins: Aih! Brek! Brek! (step on brakes for me)

Me: (step on brakes) ("this is it, I'm gonna fail! I went through the white line! In my moment of defence...") Ahh? Warna merah ah? Kenapa diorang belok ah? Saya tak tau la...lori kat depan, saya pun tak boleh tengok.

Ins: Itu gila punya orang.

Me: ("LOL!")

Ins: Ahh...okay, tukar gear. Cepat sikit. You boleh punya ma....kan boleh? Ah...signal kat sini.

Me: (change gear in the middle of the road)

Ins: Aih! Dah belok baru tukar gear ma.

Me: ....

-Awkward silence-

Ins: Dah, belok kat sini. (help me turn my steering wheel) Ahh...dah, sign kat sini.

Me: Terima kasih! Thank you so much! (beaming with happiness)

When I got my results I feel like shouting Hallelujah! Praise the Lord! I failed twice and would've failed the third time if not for Him. I was egoistic and did not ask for His help the first two times. But even with a little faith, I can do anything. At first when the instructor was arguing with the other guy, I thought that this is it, I'm doomed! That guy is in a bad mood. He will surely fail me to release his anger. Besides, he smokes, that would increase his stress even more. But I just waited and trusted the Lord. I kept praying for angels to guide the car I'm driving and that it would be a safe ride. My tiny faith brought Him to save me. "You didn't have enough faith," Jesus said. "I assure you, if you had faith as small as a mustard seed you could say to this mountain, 'move from here to there,' and it would move. Nothing would be impossible." Now that I look back, I know for sure that he made that argument between the instructor and the Chinese guy just to prove that once and for all, it is His work happening. Coincidence? I think not! He just wants me to have faith in Him. To forever more cast all my worries to his feet. To surrender.

I can do it

2009-06-08T00:29:00.003+08:00

I CAN DO IT. I ALREADY DID IT!

Do Not Worry

"Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." (Matthew 6:34)

Daylight Robbery

2009-06-07T01:15:00.002+08:00

Went to Times Square with a couple of friends. After so many months, maybe even years I didn't visit Times Square, it definitely changed a lot! The stores were made for the lala people. The only reason I used to go Times Square was for Borders but now its 2 storey glory have been downsized to only 1 floor. BTS Borders is seriously underappreciated.

Anyway, a person that hates shopping for clothes like me, had to wait outside of stores for my friends. But this visit definitely got me reaping some rewards, I found out that some stores sell Japanese street fashion clothes like Lolita. It's so cool! Have to make another trip there to do some research with Sue for our paper.

Anyway, VinXi 'dragged' me to this store that sells all things Idol, particularly Korean and Taiwanese. They have everything from posters, key-chains, mirrors, wind-chimes, anything you can ever think of! Obviously, we searched Suju things like crazy. I actually grabbed and dumped everything Suju into a basket, which was full to the brim. What went through my mind that time was to grab everything that catches my eye and filter them later. Like in Kinokuniya the other day, I wanted to buy the whole store! First time in my life I felt like a real shopaholic. Didn't bring out enough money and all that.

The people there knows how to exploit us and make big bucks! When I was cashing out my things, I began to feel cheated. I still can't believe I spent 18 bucks on a poster and a DIY key-chain. I know, stupid right? But of course, it felt right that time. It's only when I leave the store that I feel like I got robbed. Like someone poked a hole into my purse and money just kept flowing out. Hmm...the store owner must be driving a Beemer and living in a service apartment next to KLCC with all the money she's making. Dang! She sure knows how to make a fool out of the crazy fans. The celebrities have a right to claim royalties from her.

We even deposited 25 bucks each for the Suju 3rd album ver. C which I must say, I'm happy to get it but at RM75, it's a bit pricey. Okay la, it's imported and shipment is very expensive. However, this is the first original album I've ever gotten. Even with Backstreet Boys, my first love, I had never bought their original album before. I'm a practical, frugal person. This fandom thing is seriously getting back at me.

How did I get so crazy over this whole thing? It's not to that point yet, but if I let it get out of hand, celebrity worshipping is bound to come. I'm never going down that road. I'm not gonna be a crazy elf.

Elves are crazy!

2009-05-31T21:32:00.003+08:00

I feel so sick right now, like I'm about to barf. Reading this right after my dinner doesn't help either.

Read this

Sick! That poor girl just took a picture with Kangin of SJ and the E.L.F members verbally attacked her. What's wrong with this world!? Gosh, don't they have anything better to do at home? I mean, it's okay to be Super Junior fans, but this is taking the word overboard to an octave higher. I love Suju myself, but this is just too much. All they did was apologize and it's as if that made everything alright. SM should close down the fanclub. What about the family members of Lee Eun Ji? Don't they matter? I can't believe that today, the media can actually kill a person, literally.

How did we come from Adam and Eve to now? Today's society is seriously decaying. Take Akon for example, I loved his song 'Lonely'...at least it meant something. How did he go from there to 'I Wanna Make Love'!? I don't care if you wanna make love....why would you wanna tell people you wanna make love? That's sick and wrong! The only thing more sick and wrong is that people actually listens to it. That song actually shot up the billboard charts. Gah!!

I'm dissing the Elves and Akon fans right now, hmm...next thing you'll know, I'll get verbally attacked by both parties. I'm going to die young...

Bye Bye, Teacher Audrey

2009-05-30T22:33:00.006+08:00

Hah! Finally, my job at Kumon is over! I can concentrate on my studies and my life. It's kind of sad too because I'm going to miss my students there. Some of them are rotten little things while some are quiet little darlings. However, when it comes down to everything in the end, they're kids and cute ones too. I was once little demons like them too. We all were.

I only told a few students that today was my last day. I told Leanne, one of my favourite students. She's just Standard 3 but she can read as well as a Form 1 student.

Me: Today's my last day here la...(smile)

Leanne: (smile back)

-After a few minutes-

Leanne: Teacher, you serious wan ah?

Me: Of course la

Leanne: Really wan ah? I go ask Teacher Ila wan ah...

Me: Go ask la.

Leanne: Yerr...don't go la.

-After asking Kak Ila-

Leanne: You stop because your results not so good is it? (In Chinese)

Me: Hah? Speak in English la..I don't undestand. My Mandarin not so good.

-After searching my very limited Mandarin database-

Me: Oh..you mean my results go down is it? No la...I just cannot cope only, very tiring. Want to concentrate more on studies.

After that, she went to play and when I was cutting manila cards to label the students' folders, she came and 'help' me. I was reluctant to let her cut at first because a clever kid is still a kid. My guess was right because when I did let her help me, she ruined a perfectly fine sheet of manila card. Coupled with the 'help' I got from Syahid (this cute kid that I found out was Syafiqah's brother), I got all the 'help' I want. He literally used the manila cards as nunchucks. Crumpled my nice manila cards which he will later use for his folder anyway.

I have this other really naughty student, Dwayne. Who comunicated with body language and single syllable words like "Yes" and "No" Today, as if trying to irritate me on my last day, he was extra rebellious. The sentence he was supposed to read was "A funny clown" and it became "A clown with red nose on his face" Okay la...not that bad...until it got to the part where he said, "....and the dog go pee on his face" I just had to hit his head with the paper. Luckily the other teachers didn't see that or I'll be sued for child abuse.

Me: Today my last day, you layan me so bad. I'm not going to see you anymore.

Dwayne: (his specialty, just sit there and laugh like an idiot)

I wonder if he will think he made me give up my job when he don't see me anymore after today. Learned a lot from my first job, especially from the children. Would never regret taking up this job, although I sometimes think I'm underpaid for all the hard work. Teaching is not easy, especially with little kids. It's like you suddenly gave birth to dozens of kids and they all want something from you. However, like Kexin said, "WE ARE FREE PEOPLE!!!" Okay la...I'm not entirely free, if you define free as having no relations with Kumon at all. My boss at the end of today said, "We'll still see each other la...if I have any emergencies, I can still call you to come in, right?" At first I thought she was joking, but she wasn't smiling, at all. I don't mind coming in sometimes to see the children la...but I'm definitely not working for her if it's not an emergency.

Tagged by Sunbae

2009-05-24T18:04:00.002+08:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Plain water
2. Last phone call: Gai asking for Bio textbook
3. Last text message: Ding asking me to animangaki at SunU
4. Last song you listened to: Dancing Out by Super Junior
5. Last time you cried: Not really sure, maybe during church service (not really the sobbing kinda cry)

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Nope, never even dated before
7. Been cheated on: Yes, but not the relationship kind
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Nope
9. Lost someone special: Yes, a very good friend
10. Been depressed: Yes, but not the "I want to die" kind
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope...just got drunk once, and that's with my family too

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. White
13. Purple
14. Black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yes! Lots in college
16. Fallen out of love: Nope...to actually love a person is hard
17. Laughed until you cried: Yeah
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes, a lecturer
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes, since the change from high school to college
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Nope
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Err...no
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Most of them
23. How many kids do you want to have: Don't know...3, maybe?
24. Do you have any pets: Yes, my dog, June
25. Do you want to change your name: Yes! Very much..because my name is supposed to be for guys
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Celebrated with friends that literally announced my birthday to the whole school during the school carnival
27. What time did you wake up today: Today very special, I woke up and slept a few times. At 7am, 10am, 12pm then finally at 5pm just now (had fever and stomach cramps-seriously thought I had some disease like stomach cancer or appendicitis)
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Playing The Sims 3!!
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Eat!
30. Last time you saw your Mother: A few minutes ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Regrets about the wrongs I've done so far
32. What are you listning to right now: Wonder Boy by Super Junior
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope (what's with this question?)
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: My stomach cramps
35. Most visited webpage: Google (The Power of Google, people!)
36. Whats your real name: See Tho Wai Siong
37. Nicknames: Audrey, Kaori-chan, Toto (sadly, it's true)
38. Relationship Status: Single
39. Zodiac sign: Cancer
40. Male or female?: Female
41. Primary?: SK Bandar Tun Hussein Onn
42. Secondary School?: SMK Bandar Tun Hussein Onn 2
43. Poly/Ite/Jc/others?: HELP University College
44. Hair colour: Black
45. Long or short: Long
46. Height: 170cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Not at the moment
48: What do you like about yourself?: The fact that I am literate
49. Piercings: Yes, two on each ear
50. Tattoos: Err...no
51. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Thank heavens, no and hopefully never will
53. First piercing: 7 years old
54. First best friend: Kindy years..everyone in the class was my best friend
55. First sport you joined: Netball
56. First vacation: Balik kampung at Muar la
58. First pair of trainers: How to remember oh? When I took my first steps as a baby?
59. Eating: I'm still full
60. Drinking: Just took a gulp of water
61. I'm about to: Play The Sims 3!!
62. Listening to: You're my Endless Love by Super Junior
63. Waiting on: My phone to finish charging
64. Want kids?: Yes, just not now because I don't have money and it's against the law
65. Get Married?: Duh! Don't every girl want that? DEEP, DEEP down...each girl wants that
66. Career?: Forensic/Child Psychologist
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Both
69. Shorter or taller: Neither
70. Older or younger: Younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Stomach
73. Sensitive or loud: Loud
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Neither

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: No
77. Drank hard liquor: Yes, just a few sips
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes! A good few times too, until I had to pay for my last pair of glasses
79. Sex on first date: No!
80. Broken someone's heart: Maybe, who knows?
82. Been arrested: Nope
83. Turned someone down: Yeah
84. Cried when someone died: Yes
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Yeah
87. Miracles: Yes
88. Love at first sight: I did, not anymore
89. Heaven: Yes
90.Santa Claus: When I was a kid
91. Kiss on the first date: No
92. Angels: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Never even had one
95. Did you sing today?: Yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Yes
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: To my kindy days
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: The day I took my PSV paper in SPM
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Yep

TAGGING:
Not tagging!

p/s: didn't I do this tag before? Weird...

Tagged by Twinnie

2009-05-19T22:55:00.002+08:00

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
- Cheeks.

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning ?
- Blurry.

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with ?
- Trisha, Audrey, Dhinesh, Carmen, Sue, Justin and Adam.

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
- A little.

5. Will you ever donate blood ?
- No cos I'm underaged!! I want to~

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?
- Yeah...I have one.

7. Do you want someone to be dead ?
- Sometimes when I'm mad, but I don't really mean it la.

8. What does your last text message say ?
- "So how? I'm not onlining la.."

9. What are you thinking right now ?
- My PSP calar until like dunno how adi...sakit hati betul!!

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right now ?
- Nope..I want to be left alone when to 'reflect on my day'...fuiyoo~

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
- Around 2am.

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
- B.U.M Equipment.

13. Is someone on your mind right now ?
- No.

14. Who was the last person who text you ?
- Lim Ke Xin.

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz...
1. Lim Ke Xin
2. Ng Yee Ding
3. Ahmad Faisal
4. Gayathri Gunasekaran
5. Lim Kit Yeng
6. Lee Wen Sheng
7. Ooi Vin Xi
8. Chin Sue Finn
9. Ng Shin Yin
10. I'm out of friends to tag....I'm such a sad lonely person...lol!

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with ?
- Not that I know of...maybe she's secretly having a relationship....

16. Is no.3 a male or a female ?
- Half of each. We call him/her kakak macho!

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together , would it be a good?
- Errr....I used to think they're long lost twins. But yeah, turns out they're totally different.

18. What is no.1 studying about ?
- Law at Brickfields Asia College...still single! Anyone interested?

19. When was the last time you chatted with them ?
- I'm chatting with one of them as it is right now.

20.Is no.4 single ?
- Yep...again, interested? Smart, brainy and beautiful. The question is, can you handle it?

21. Say something about no.2 .
- Anime otaku and a clever girl.

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being together ?
- Hmm...interesting...but yeah, I don't think they're interested in having same sex relationships. Or are they??

23. Describe no.9 .
- No. 2's sister. You've guessed it! An anime otaku too.

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight ?
- They don't even know each other...

25. Do you like 8 ?
- Of course, she's like a sister to me.

Addicted...Am I Really?

2009-05-17T22:46:00.005+08:00

Addicted to all that has to do with Super Junior lately. Evidence?

1. Been spending my semester break watching every single variety show that has Suju in it. From Super Junior Full House to Intimate Note. According to witnesses, namely my sister and mother, I just sit in front of the laptop everyday laughing like crazy. Having the first symptoms of sounding like Eeteukie when he laughs. His laugh is like, "Ahihihihi!!" Watch

2. Been spending my semester break watching Super Junior MVs and downloading all their songs. I'm beginning to be like VinXi!

3. Ate Korean food today, Kimchi soup. I admit, Suju had some effect there. Seriously, if I didn't watch them eating the delicious Kimchi soup in Adonis camp, I wouldn't even have thought about it at all.

Result: Yes, I am addicted to Super Junior. To the point that my best friend told me, and I quote; "I lost my best friend to Suju! She has Korean citizenship!" My aunt told my mum today; "Next time you'll get a Korean son in-law."

=.=" I'm still 100% Malaysian, okay?

Darn it!

2009-05-11T11:28:00.004+08:00

Haih....failed my driving test-AGAIN! This time, I went into the wrong lane. Just when I wanna go into the big road, where all the traffic is...he asked me to stop at the side. I didn't take extra class after the last time I failed...maybe that's why. Me and my big ego. I felt like barfing before taking the test...it's that nerve-wrecking! I did many other performances at school before and had never felt this way. Maybe because I had something to lose here. I think I may have developed driving phobia. I feel like throwing my L license into the drain and take the public transport for the rest of my life. If Malaysia's public transport don't suck this much, I would've done just that.

Bottom line, gonna try again! Fighting! Ganbatte! Jiayou!

p/s: if only driving is as easy as studying...

Supaa Junia!

2009-05-10T22:29:00.010+08:00

Been watching and listening to Super Junior a lot lately. Don't call me a bf stealer, VinXi, you did this to me! LOL! From my last post, VX danced to Super Junior songs a lot. "Go back and watch their videos la...I dance correct wan~" she said. Oh...I watched alright...and was instantly hooked. I'm

not cheating on SS501 but...Suju dance very nice leh. Mianhe, SS501~

Suju came to the MTV Asia Awards last year in Genting Highlands. I was there! But I had no idea who Suju was. The MCs, fans were all talking about them. Fans of Suju swarmed in with glow in the dark banners. I'm regretting it now...I didn't even pay attention when they went on stage. It was probably the only chance I got to see them in person.

I'm not a person that goes after Korean stuffs...especially not Korean dramas. But Suju's Sorry Sorry video is so uber fantastic that I wonder how much training they went on to perfect it. I've already watched them on Attack on the Pin-Up Boys, Intimate Note, Exploring the Human Body, Super Junior Mini-Drama and now watching Super Junior Full House. Seriously, they're very funny, particularly in Intimate Note and Exploring the Human Body. The first SJ MV I saw was 'U' and the only person I noticed was Heechul. His hair is really beautiful...he's beautiful, seriously! Heechul is really, the weird one. His personality is very different because he tries to stand out. He's also self-absorbed. Watch this video

At the end, he mentioned: "It can't be helped! I, Kim Heechul, was born to successfully make women fall in love with me. Its not my fault! Its not of my own free will! My mother and father created this face!"

Haha! That really made me laugh out loud!

Heechul

p/s: Xing, I'm not a Korean stuff fan, just SS501 & Suju fan... ^^

Melaka

2009-04-29T20:12:00.009+08:00

"Hey, yeah, cool!" Okay..it's an inside joke between VinXi, SueFinn and I. Sorry for not updating for so long. I've been hooked on Restaurant City, Neopets and Chocolatier for days. Plus, I went to Melaka on Mon and Tue. Have lots to tell..about the trip, I mean. Not on Restaurant City....but I highly recommend it! ^^

VinXi, SueFinn & I

First trip ever without any of my family with me...just friends. Surprisingly, my parents let me. Okay, it's just 2 hours away from KL...so, not that bad laa. Mission for the trip on our minds were...FOOD! Yes...lots of good food. Not Stadhuys, A'Famosa or Taman Buaya...those crap we always write in our primary school essays. I've been to Melaka tons of times. In Form 3's school trip, I went to Melaka too but it wasn't much because they just brought us to some quiet, boring fruit farm and Mahkota Parade. There wasn't Jonker Street or all that good stuff. I had it all planned. The places we would go, the food we will eat, the place we will stay and how we'd go there. They slept at my house the day before then we head over to Puduraya for a bus to Melaka. I thought a bus ticket would cost RM9...but a backpacker virgin like me didn't think of the government tax at all. Everything I had was from the internet. Internet has good info..but experience is way better.

The Dutch Square

Church of St.Francis Xavier

I told VinXi and Sue I was gonna give really bad reviews to Ringos Foyer Guesthouse. This is why. We took the bus from Melaka Sentral to the Dutch Square then trekked for at least 5 kilometres under the hot sun on a Monday noon searching for the hostel. Okay...when we were finally there, we pressed on the door bell for a couple of times and no one was there. I even got so frustrated that I pressed on the bell like a maniac. I think the sun must have gotten to me. No one was there, we were tired, sweating and stranded. Thank God we didn't get sunstroke and pass out in the middle of heavy trafic. That will be an experience to remember. Anyway...I read several reviews and heard that Ringos was a great place to stay. They got 86% on their overall review. Well...they didn't mention they don't operate on lunch hours, did they!? So, why is it that we couldn't get the amazing service reviewed on HostelWorld? Like lost lambs, we trekked everywhere for a place to stay...wasting hours of our precious time that could be used to eat cendol!!

the view behind our room

Finally, we found a reasonable guesthouse to stay the night in. It's called River View Guest House. Yeah, I wrote a good review for this one. The owners, Raymond and Mani were really friendly. They told us to help ourselves to anything in the kitchen. It was as if we were in our own house...supported by SueFinn's constant referral to the guesthouse as 'home'. It's pretty new...so there weren't many people staying there. We could even choose our own room and it has a view of the Melaka River!! Ferries would pass by the guesthouse and we would wave at them. Okay...it's pretty hot in the room, especially if you're used to the ac. It's just next to Jonker Street with full access to pubs(not that we went), public transports, and definitely, good food.

chicken rice balls

Nyonya cendol

Coca-Cola museum

Speaking of good food, Melaka has it all. The first thing we had was chicken rice balls at Hoe Kee restaurant. It was really good and cheap. I only paid 5 bucks for the meal which is wayy cheaper than the price in KL. After that, cendol for dessert. This guy specializes in Nyonya cendol and his shop is full of collectibles from Coca-Cola. It was like stepping into a museum. It was just opposite Hoe Kee...so, we didn't do much walking for the cendol we had been waiting days for. After that, we did some walking around Jonker Street and got a map from the Tourist Police. Even with the map, we managed to get lost a couple of times more than necessary....usually led by me. We took the Panorama bus around town. Went to Mahkota Parade and Dataran Pahlawan. Which I must say, are the only places we can find people our age. Jonker Street is quiet on weekdays. If you want to go Melaka for nightlife, you should go on fridays and weekends where stalls are open at night. But with so many people, you'd have to wait in line for everything. We went to the Portuguese Settlement too...and saw the sea! Okay...it's wasn't really the sea...it's the Straits of Melaka...but it's the closest we can get to the sea. The beach was really dirty though...and I saw some ships dumping oil into the waters. But there were still a few fishing boats nearby. VinXi made a joke about the sun. She pointed at the sun and the beach and said, "sun of a beach". Haih..now wonder the sun was glaring at us that day...

at the beach

sun of a beach

satay celup

Got lost on the way to eat dinner...again, my fault but thank heavens for people and directions. We had satay celup for dinner. I actually planned to go Capitol Satay but it was closed. So, we had to eat at the pirated version of it...the one next door. I forgot it's name...but it was alright. It was just 8pm but shops were already closed. Trekked back to the hostel...didn't get lost there! Saw a stall selling fried oyster (ho jian) and they looked delicious. Rented bikes for tomorrow with the help of the guesthouse owner. Went back to talk, eat and finally slept at 2am. Oh...I just have to highlight VinXi's constant singing. At first, it was bearable but after a while...it was funny and annoying. She had to sing the whole night...at one point, she sang to the curtain on our window, as if it will close by itself with the help of her magical singing. Singing was still okay...but couple it up with dancing...you get the picture. And she's a huge fan of Super Junior. Even to the extent of watching MVs everyday and memorizing all their dance moves.

VinXi's Super Junior

Sunrise

Bukit Cina

Next morning, we woke up at 5am and cycled to Bukit Cina to catch the sunrise. Actually...more like getting lost, then cycled to Bukit Cina. It was a nightmare...we followed the not-very-detailed map and I again, led us to nowhere. We had to ask for directions three times. At one point, we even cycled into a cemetary. We know where Bukit Cina is..it's just the question of how to go up. There was this creepy road up that we could have cycled up but it was just too scary...especially since Bukit Cina is where all the tombs are. So, we searched everywhere for an hour and finally found access up, next to a school The guards told us to go up only when there is more light. We actually woke up way earlier than necessary...but it was good too...since we wasted all that unnecessary time on getting lost. Saw the sky turning brighter...but the sun did not turn up...it was just too cloudy. Up there, we got really good view of Melaka city. It wasn't much...not like KL anyway. No skyscrapers or high-rise buildings. But it has a charming feel to it. Up there, people, mostly middle-aged, comes up to exercise. VinXi, mentioned that it was a good location for a music video. Really...with all the tombstones behind. Maybe we should recreate Michael Jackson's Thriller-asian version.

Eye on Malaysia

VinXi, relaxing

me, freaking out

Baba laksa

Had breakfast and went back to the hostel for a nap. More singing on VinXi's part. Cycled to Eye on Malaysia. We didn't get a chance to ride it in KL. It wasn't much of a view up there but it definitely reminded me of my phobia of heights. I paid 8 bucks for that ride and immediately regretted it when the ferris wheel moved. No one was there....we had the ride to ourselves. To me, cycling there was more fun than the ride itself. Mostly because there weren't any cars and we had the wind blowing on our faces. Went for lunch at MAM restaurant on Jonker Street. The baba laksa there is amazing! Very different than the laksa we're used to. It has lots of kaffir lime leaves in the soup with canned tuna. It doesn't have the oily and thick taste in normal curry laksa. It tasted refreshing and light. Had cendol and abc. Then we went to tapau chicken rice ball for the trip home and Sue bought pinneaple tarts. Took the bus back to Melaka Sentral and took the 'exclusive bus' which was a load of crap. The guy promised us a tv and drinks. All we had were the radio on Sinar fm and a pretty comfy seat. When I asked the driver to drop us off at KTM Serdang, he dropped us at some rest house next to UPM. Thank God my brother knows where to pick up up.

Going home (bad cam-whoring skills)

All in all...it was a great trip! Except the part of getting lost a lot. Had a great experience with food and the people there. To compare KL and Melaka is like comparing the past and the future of Malaysia. Throughout the trip, people offered to help us when we get lost. I call it, power of the map. When I hold my map up, the locals swarm to help us. When we cross the street, the cars stop for us. It was so different from what I know of KL. In KL, if you don't walk fast, cars will not stop for you and drivers will shout at you. Everything in KL is about luxury in the fastest way possible. KL people has no time to be friendly. There are robbers everywhere and the people around will just watch you getting robbed, expecting someone else to call 999 or help the victim out. In my previous posts, I mentioned buses in Malaysia being rude and the drivers unfriendly. Well, I was shown wrong. Buses in Malaysia isn't rude at all....only RapidKL buses are. In Melaka, we were shown Malaysian hospitality at its highest. The guesthouse owner was willing to help. The bus we took, Panorama, was constant. The drivers will ask us where we want to go and offer to direct us to the right station. It was a whole other view of Malaysia. However, I must say that the drains there are clogged up and really stinks. Reminds me of my hometown, actually. In Muar, the drains smell the same and had the same unidentified jelly-like substance that don't flow in the drains. Apart from that, Melaka was a breath of fresh air. Very much recommend it...go on weekends if you like the nightlife. But to me, going on weekdays was pretty good because we didn't have to get in line or face the crowds. Oh...and going with friends is way more enjoyable because you learn to be independent and you're not tied down by your parents.

friendly bus

Beautiful

2009-04-21T18:51:00.002+08:00

Heya! I went for my driving test today. Passed the first part of it which consisted of going up a slope, side parking and 3 point-turning. Came the second part, I waited for an hour and half and didn't even get on the car seat for more than 5 minutes. The instructor asked me stop at the side of the road. He told me I overshot the white line that I was supposed to stop before. I was kinda nervous then so, I admit that I was wrong there. My heard sank when he told me it was a 'kesalahan mandatori'. We changed seats and he drove us back which, I think is unnecessary since we're barely half a kilometer away from the centre. The crappy part to this is that I didn't even get a chance to go on the road. Man, that totally sucked!

Like I always do, I got over it after some complaining. My friends and my own mum told me I should've bribed. Whatever. I just can't and won't bribe. Call me stubborn...it's just that way.

Yeah..so, I got back and slept for a while because I just don't have mood to study for Chemistry then. I even dreamed that I would fail the next time I retake the test. When I woke up as usual, I checked my mail and stuff. I read my daily mail from Pastor Rick Warren: Purpose Driven Connection. I usually just browse through it and forget about it. But today, it made me cry. I thought God has forsaken me when I took the driving test. I just couldn't understand why even after praying, I still failed. Was it not enough? Or is God testing me. Well, he gave me an answer, alright.

"There's far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can't see now will last forever" (2 Corinthians 4:18 MSG).

So much of what we waste our energy on will not matter even a year from now, much less for eternity. Don't trade your life for temporary things. Jesus said, "Anyone who lets himself be distracted from the work I plan for him is not fit for the Kingdom of God" (Luke 9:62 LB). Paul warned, "Deal as sparingly as possible with the things the world thrusts on you. This world as you see it is on its way out" (1 Corinthians 7:31 MSG).

What are you allowing to stand in the way of your mission? Whatever it is, let it go. "Let us strip off anything that slows us down or holds us back..." (Hebrews 12:1 LB).

How can we do this? In one of his most misunderstood statements, Jesus said, "I tell you, use worldly wealth to gain friends for yourselves, so that when it is gone, you will be welcomed into eternal dwellings" (Luke 16:9 NIV).

Jesus did not mean for you to "buy" friends with money. What he meant was that you should use the money God gives you to bring people to Christ. They will then be friends for eternity who will welcome you when you get to heaven! It's the best financial investment you'll ever make.

You've probably heard the expression, "You can't take it with you," but the Bible says you can send it on ahead, by investing it in people who are going there! The Bible says, "By doing this they will be storing up real treasure for themselves in heaven—it is the only safe investment for eternity! And they will be living a fruitful Christian life down here as well" (1 Timothy 6:19 LB).

So, I'm gonna keep trying because I know He will be with me no matter what happens. He has a plan for me.

Did That Happen To You? (Tagged by Sunbae)

2009-04-20T17:07:00.003+08:00

Why do everyone these days like to tag me? I'm I that 'taggable'? Gonna have to think up of a plan to kenakan you guys back..*evil laughs*

1. Answer the questions as honestly (or as funny) as possible.
2. Post this as "Did That Happen To You?"
3. Tag 20 friends.
4. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
5. Have fun!

Question 1:What do you do if you are in the bathroom with a beetle flying around?
If it comes near me, i'll spray the crap out of it and watch it drown and die *evil laughs*

Question 2:What do you do if you hear a song you like playing on the radio when you are all alone in the room?
Sing my heart out.

Question 3:You want to speak to your crush badly.What is your pick up line?
What goes on in my head: "Hey! You're that guy from *** right?"
What goes on in reality: *staring at him* (hanya memandang dari jauh).

Question 4:What do you do if all your friends hate a particular band that you love?
Keep to myself.

Question 5:What do you do when you trip and fall in front of many people?
I've got three steps to this: (BLW) Blush, Laugh, Walkaway.

Question 6:You forgot to do your multiple-choice question homework (the one whereby you have to choose 1 out of 4 options given to you as your answer) and it had to be submit in 5 minutes. What do you do?
Happened a lot of times (especially in Chem). The lecturer really didn't care, so I did the thing on the spot.

Question 7:You have bad breath and someone speaks to you.How do you react?
Speak minimally and smiling always stop someone from asking any further but when I really have to say something, speak downwards lah.

Question 8:You just finished gym and after a shower, you drop your clean clothes on the wet floor. What do you do?
Still wear it, unless there is some kinda unidentified substance on the floor, then I'll borrow some of my friend's.

Question 9:What do you do if a personality quiz says that you have a lousy personality as your result?
Whatever lah. It's not like a personality test can define me. I define myself, I don't shape myself to be what that quiz say I am.

Question 10:Your friend gave you the worst gift you have ever received and asks: Do you like it? How do you react?
Please and thank you!

Question 11:(Continued from question 10) What are you really thinking secretly inside?
I'm probably gonna put it aside in my display collection of unused birthday presents.

Question 12: hot guy/girl keeps looking at you while you are on the bus. What are you secretly thinking inside?
Chances of that happening is less than 0%. But if that happens, that guy might me thinking I'm weird.

Question 13:Your crush and you are eating dinner together, the food you've ordered came first, you do not want him or her to look at you eating while his or her food hasn't come. What will you do?
Chat with him until his dinner comes.

Question 14:You are alone in your house and you realized that there is a burglar. What do you do?
What I dream of doing: Now this has happened before, my siblings and I were huge '3 Ninjas' fans. I was Tum Tum, my sis, Colt and my bro, Rocky. We had all these shurikens made out of popsicle sticks and lotsa duct tape. And we just started practicing Taekwondo too. We promised each other that if someone did break into our house, we're gonna kick the burglar's butt. My weapon of choice was a large decorative fork as tall as I was. On the night of the break-in, guess what happened? We were sleeping like pigs!! I'm glad the burglar did not break into our rooms and threaten us.
What I would really do: Dial 999.

Question 15:What do you do when your best friend had just spoilt your favourite one and only camera with all the important photos you cherished inside?
First thought would be to curse in an array of colourful words then my conscience would kick in and I'll say, "It's alright." (partly to that person and partly to myself).

Question 16:What do you do when you receive a call from a kidnapper and your friend is in their hands?
Make sure if it's true then call 999 then call his/her parents.

Question 17:What do you do if you break your friend's favourite vase but he or she didn't saw it?
Walk around in the same spot for a while, thinking how would he/she react and how can I repay he/she. Then tell the truth and face whatever that's gonna come.

Question 18:You were told to buy carrots by your mother, but you forgotten it and went back home with garlic. How will you explain to your mother?
Go out and buy the carrots again before she even know's I'm back with garlic.

Question 19:What do you do when you saw a cat chasing a mouse?
Let go of my dog.

Question 20:You missed your favourite tv show and it was the season finale. What do you do?
Ask, "Kor~ download *** for me."

Question 21:There is a crash in your schedule, one is your friend's wedding, the other is your another friend's last day of funeral. What will you do?
If i've attended all previous days of the funeral, I'll just tell the family my condolences then go to the wedding.

Movie Mania Tag by Ona

2009-04-19T00:32:00.002+08:00

Ceh! The ona this time tag me only...I have a life, okeh?
If you've seen over 85 films, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 films on this list. Then, put an 'x' next to the films you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number.

Teen/ Romance:
(x) The Cinderella Story
( ) Another Cinderella Story
(x) Step Up
( ) Step Up 2
(x) High School Musical
(x) High School Musical 2
( ) High School Musical 3
( ) Hannah Montana Movie
(x) Enchanted
( ) Sydney White
Total: 5

(x) She's the Man
(x) Licensed to Wed
(x) The Break-up
(x) 13 going on 30
( ) 27 Dresses
( ) P.S I Love You
(x) Made of Honour
(x) What Happens in Vegas
(x) Get Smart
( ) The Princess Brides
Total: 7

(x) Camp Rock
(x) Wild Child
( ) Ella Enchanted
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Hotel For Dogs
( ) Just Married
(x) Freaky Friday
Total: 7

(x) The Hot Chick
( ) Sleepover
(x) Confessions Of a Shopaholic
(x) Twilight
(x) Nancy Drew
(x) The Devil Wears Prada
(x) No Reservations
(x) Perfect Man
( ) Australia
(x) Never Been Kissed
Total: 8

Comedy/Humour:
(x) Yes Man
(x) Bedtime Stories
(x) The Pink Panther
( ) The Pink Panther 2
(x) Marley & Me
(x) Cheetah Girls
( ) Cheetah Girls 2
( ) Bratz
(x) Haunted Mansion
( ) Paul Blart Mall Cop
Total: 6

( ) The 40-year-old virgin
(x) Night in the Museum
( ) Night in the Museum 2
(x) Evan Almighty
(x) Bruce Almighty
(x) White Chicks
( ) Never ending Story
( ) Meet the Spartans
(x) Meet the Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
Total: 6

( ) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
( ) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
(x) Scary Movie 4
( ) American Pie
( ) American Pie 2
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total: 2

Adventures:
(x) Harry Potter 1: The Sorcerer’s Stone
(x) Harry Potter 2: The Chamber's Secret
(x) Harry Potter 3: Prisoner of Azkaban
(x) Harry Potter 4: Goblet of Fire
(x) Harry Potter 5: Order of Phoenix
(x) Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings: Return Of the King
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia: Prince Caspian
Total: 10

( ) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
( ) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
( ) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
( ) Indiana Jones and the Crystal Skull
(x) The Mummy
(x) The Mummy 2
( ) The Mummy 3
(x) Journey to the Center of Earth
( ) City of Ember
( ) Finding Never land
Total: 3

(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 3: At World's End
(x) X-Men
(x) X-Men 2
( ) X-Men 3 Origins Wolverine
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Spider Man 3
(x) King Kong
Total: 9

( ) Hellboy
(x) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(x) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
( ) Underdog
(x) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Batman: The Dark Knight
Total: 7

Action/ Thriller:
(x) The Matrix
(x) The Matrix Reloaded
(x) The Matrix Revolutions
(x) Terminator
(x) Terminator 2
(x) Terminator 3
( ) Ocean's Eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Ocean’s Thirteen
(x) Casino Royale 007
Total: 7

( ) Bourne Identity
( ) Bourne Supremecy
( ) Underworld
(x) Butterfly Effect
(x) Death Note
(x) Death Note 2
( ) Death Note 3: L Change the world
(x) Resident Evil 1
( ) Resident Evil 2
(x) I, Robot
Total: 5

(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
(x) Rush Hour 3
(x) Mission Impossible 1
(x) Mission Impossible 2
(x) Mission Impossible 3
(x) I Am Legend
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( ) Signs
Total: 7

Horror:
( ) Saw
( ) Saw II
( ) Saw III
( ) Saw IV
(x) Saw V
(x) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
( ) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
Total: 2

(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Final Destination 3
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
( ) Child's Play
(x) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
( ) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
Total: 4

( ) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
( ) The Haunted Apartment
( ) Siren
( ) Silent Hill
(x) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
( ) Alone
( ) Omen
( ) House Of Wax
Total: 1

(x) The Eye
( ) The Eye 2
( ) Shutter
( ) When the Stranger calls
( ) The Fog
( ) The Orphanage
( ) The Skulls
(x) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) House of 1000 Corpses
Total: 2

Cartoons:
(x) Lilo & Stitch
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
(x) Madagascar
(x) Madagascar 2
(x) Kung Fu Panda
(x) Bolt
(x) Wall-E
(x) Monsters Inc
(x) Shark Tale
Total: 10

(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
(x) Shrek 3
(x) Finding Nemo
(x) ET
(x) Cars
(x) Ratatouille
(x) Toy Story
(x) Toy Story 2
(x) The Incredibles
Total: 10

Inspirational:
(x) Little Miss Sunshine
( ) I Am Sam
(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Coach Carter
( ) The Last Dance
( ) To Kill A Mockingbird
( ) Conrack
( ) Midnight Sun
( ) Little Black Book
( ) Rwanda Genocide
Total: 3

Classics:
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Titanic
( ) Romeo & Juliet
( ) Frankenstein
( ) A Midsummer Night's Dream
Total: 2

TOTAL ALTOGETHER : 123/239
ok laa....i watch a lot of movies..but that doesn't mean I don't have a life, okayy? It's just part of my hobby. Besides, who don't watch classics like Titanic and Spiderman?? C'mon lah~

Tagged by Bdk Kampung

2009-04-16T00:10:00.003+08:00

> Where is your cell phone?
Table.

> Your significant other?
Jesus?

> Your hair?
Burgundy.

> Your mother?
Evelyn.

> Your father?
Richard.

> Your favorite thing?
Books.

> Your dream last night?
7up.

> Your favorite drink?
Soymilk.

> Your dream/goal?
Heaven.

> What room are you in?
Hall.

> Your hobby
Reading.

> Your fear?
Hell.

> Where do you want to be in 6 years?
Anywhere.

> Where were you last night?
Home.

> Something that you aren't?
Anorexic.

> Muffins?
Chocolate!

> Where you grew up?
Malaysia.

> Last thing you did?
FMA2-ing.

> What are you wearing?
Shorts.

> TV?
Disney.

> Your pet?
Dog.

> Friends?
Countless.

> Your life?
Fulfilling.

> Your mood?
Happy.

> Missing someone?
Nope.

> Your car?
Atos.

> Something you're not wearing?
Socks.

> Your favorite store?
Borders!

> Your favorite color?
Purple.

> When is the last time you laughed?
FMA2-ing

> Last time you cried?
FMA2-ing

Natto!

2009-04-15T23:57:00.001+08:00

Ahh..finally, no more assignments for the rest of the semester!! These past two weeks had been crazy! So, I decided to treat myself to unadon Actually, I’m blogging from Sushi Zanmai right now. Unadon was my lunch but I saw this thing called Ika Natto on the menu and it reminded me of Yakitate!! Japan. For those who don’t watch it, I seriously recommend it…especially if you like culinary stuff like my sis. She doesn’t watch anime at all but loved Yakitate!! Japan after I intro it to her.

Anyway, for those who did watch it, remember the part where Azuma’s grandpa ate natto with bread? Yeah...it looked delicious…so, I tried it and found out that it’s disgusting. It’s exactly like how the anime made it look like, sticky and slimy. I thought it was supposed to be sweet but it’s not. It’s fermented soybeans, so you can already imagine the rotten taste of it. It tasted like I was eating my own flem out of a bowl. And I paid for it! I wouldn’t eat it again even if I get paid.

Tagged by Ona

2009-04-09T00:42:00.003+08:00

Who is your best guy friend?
- Sal.

Who is your best friend that's a girl?
- Xing.

What is your favorite thing to do in the summer?
- No summer in Malaysia lahh... but if there is, swim at the beach.

Winter?
- No winter in Malaysia but if there is, snowball fights!

Have you ever gone camping?
- Yes.

Have you ever been on Urban Dictionary?
- Yep.

How many trees are in your yard?
- Four.

Are you anticipating?
- Yes...for an A.

If you had to hang out with any teacher you ever had, which one?
- Hrm...Pn.Dyan maybe? Or Ms. Elaine. They're both comical and Eng teachers. Go English!

Do you think a lot of situations in your life are awkward?
- Some.

If you had to be a fruit, which one would you be?
- Is cocoa bean a kind of fruit?

Something stupid that makes you laugh?
- Yeah...crapping with the Chocoholics.

Do you say 'omg' in real life?
- No..I'm kinda scared if God suddenly appear in front of me and ask, "What!?"

How long is your hair?
- Over me shoulders.

Would you rather ski or swim?
- Swim.

You're a crayon, what color would you be?
- Purple!

Who is the fakest person you know?
- ....

Are you dead honest or do you keep your thoughts to yourself?
- Keep my thoughts but if I have to say something, I try to say it in the nicest way possible.

Do you cry when your in pain?
- Nah...my friends say I just act cool when in pain.

So, what time is it?
- 1.02 in the morning.

What day is it?
- Thursday.

What month is it?
- April.

Favorite thing about this month?
- Mother's Day.

Do you wear make-up?
- No.

Do you like root beer?
- Yeah.

Do you always have to be doing something with your hands?
- Nope.

I've always wanted those contacts that look like cat eyes, haven't you?
- Nope...I'm bad in handling contacts.

Have you ever seen a glacier?
- Nope...at least not real ones.

Favorite word?
- Love.

Ever been called a punk?
- No.

Last person you smiled at?
- My sister.

Not tagging anyone..unlike someone I know...

Hana Yori Dangosss

2009-04-08T22:00:00.003+08:00

With all the craze about Boys Before Flowers(HYD Korean Ver.), I got sucked into it too. Haha...no doubt, I'm not the crazy Korean drama fan kinda girl. I've always wondered why people watch Korean dramas..their plots are all about love and betrayal, that kinda thing. Basically, predictable dramas (like certain TVB ones too). But, BBF is way different cos it's based on HYD manga which btw, is awesome!

This is how i got into the whole HYD phenomenon...
Pride & Prejudice movie>HYD manga(apparently it's loosely based on P&P)>HYD Jap Drama>HYD Jap Movie>BBF!!!
BBF lead to other things too...
BBF>Kim Bum (^^)>Kim Hyun Joong>SS501>Korean shows.
I'm a Korean drama virgin before BBF and this is really a breakthrough for me to explore into Korean stuff. I'm addicted to Korean songs now..haha!!

Anywayy...HYD started with the manga, then the anime, Taiwan drama, Jap drama and now Korean drama. What's next? Malaysian drama? LOL..
Comparing the actors with the characters of HYD, I can honestly say...the Korean one is the best. Taiwan ver. is okay at first but in Season 2, the plotline don't really follow the manga anymore. Jap ver. follows the plotline and it's super funny but the actors are not really...as beautiful as the manga says they are. BBF actors are beautiful, not handsome, beautiful!! And they portray the characters really well I feel like I'm reading the manga and watching the drama. Of course, they added some scenes not in the manga but just as perfect!

Just for your info, I'm a fan of Kim Bum and Kim Hyun Joong's now..haha. KB is just, well...cute and KHY is musically talented and of course, beautiful. Rumours say that BBF is coming out with Season 2 next year Feb. So long eh...

Smile - Nat King Cole

2009-04-05T23:03:00.002+08:00

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, youll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
Youll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

RapidKL...one of the greatest mystery in the world.

2009-04-03T23:19:00.002+08:00

As you all may already know, I'm a supporter of the environment. So, I take the public transport to school. (Okay, it's that or walking.) Tuesday and Wednesday mornings, my dad send me to college on his way to work and sometimes I really feel like rolling down the window to scream at the other drivers heading to work/college. Why don't they just try car pooling? I mean, your colleague may just be the driver in the car right behind you. About 80% of the cars I see on the road are empty (save for the driver). That just tells you who are the culprits of the morning, evening rush and all that stress. If we just choose to car pool, we can save so much petrol, save the environment and save time. I know, I sound so much like a tree-hugger these days.

Okay, the main thing I wanna post today is about the RapidKL buses. They're inconsistent and the drivers think they're 'all that'! Just today while waiting for Alex to pick me up after class at the LRT station, the bus stopped right in the middle of the busy road in front of the station. I didn't realize it at first until a few cars behind it started honking. Then only I saw that the bus was, well....driverless. He just literally parked right in the middle of the road without any concern for other people. And you know what the 'emergency' was? He had to park in the middle of the road causing traffic jam....to get a cup of coffee. That's it, and he didn't even feel guily about it. Just strode back into the bus like some big-shot while cars behind were honking like mad. Just because the bus is 3 times huger than a normal car, the driver thinks he owns the roads. In rude BM, that's called...'jalan bapak dia!'

This is not the first nightmare encounter I have with RapidKL either. Usually when I'm late, I would take the LRT to Bangsar then take the bus to college. The bus would be there waiting most of the time...but you know what? Driverless again. If it's for 5 minutes it's okay la...they need a break too. But it just get on my nerves sometimes when they go for 15-20 minute breaks. To all the lecturers of HUC, this is why I'm late sometimes. We have to wait for them! Like we need them! If I knew how to drive a bus, I would've driven it myself.

Speaking of public transports, the KTM is another problem I have with Malaysia's public transport system. In school textbooks, we learn that we should always save the environment by taking the public transport and car pooling. I totally agree with that but I really wanna ask the people who wrote the textbooks.."How can I take the public transport when it sucks so much I wanna cry?" Let me give you a very good example, just happened to me today-again. (Yeah, today's not a very good travelling day for me.) I usually take the KTM train from KL Sentral back to Tasik Selatan. It costs me 1 ringgit and the route is actually more convenient compared to the LRT which I have to change routes at Masjid Jamek and costs me RM3.70. Anyhoo...usually the trains will come in 10-20 minutes or so. (Again, very inconsistent.) Just for today, to let me suffer a bit more than usual, I had to wait for 30 min for a train! Of course, I didn't want to and took the LRT instead. Take it from me, the only public transports worth taking in Malaysia are the LRT and cabs.

Games

2009-04-01T21:33:00.005+08:00

Hey ppl! Konyanyachiwa!! Uwaa..nowadays a lot of work eh! No time to blog, but what am I doing now?
Lol..anyway, we're doing L4D at college these days. Haha...quite fun la. The zombies in this game are not the Resident Evil kind where they just goes around like sleepwalking. No, not at all...this kind are the ones that runs at you! Super scary la weh...

Ooohhh...speaking of games, The Sims 3 is gonna be out in June. You've probably heard me talking about it a million times already. The only reason I got this new laptop is to play The Sims 3. You can be sure this simaholic will play it everyday. To Alep, you'll be hearing a lot about how awesome The Sims 3 from me... *evil laughs*

Earth Hour or Fun Hour?

2009-03-29T00:33:00.003+08:00

I'm speaking as a third person perspective, not judging, just observing.
The human race is one that I find most odd. They find delight in everything and find every possible way to express their emotions, in their terms, 'party' or 'celebrate'. Take for example, a very common ritual among the humans is 'countdowns' especially on the eve of significant events. What they do is, shout and scream at the top of their lungs ignoring all concerns in ethics without any particular reason. This is because it is 'fun', 'cool' and 'the trend'.

Earth Hour is one big step against global warming. This is one of those 'significant events' that the human race find important enough to gather together and perform their ritual of shouting. As this writer is from Malaysia, let me direct your attention to a video taken in KL:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oLkdUtRjju4

Hear all the screams and shouts? Yes, that is what I'm trying to say. Do they have to shout at everything? It's just the KLCC without lights. Global warming is not something to be celebrated. We have to take actions. They should save the petrol which I have to add, contributes to the carbon footprint, by not driving all the way to KL just to shout and scream at each other. They are saying no to global warming by switching off lights and there they are, outside producing greenhouse gases. I just have to add that they probably feel hyper afterwards and will go to some restaurant to have supper. What will they have? Let's see...how about beef steak? Cattles contribute more greenhouse gases-in this case, methane and carbon dioxide-than cars. Surprising? It's a whopping 18% of global warming. So, next time you choose beef steak, you choose global warming.

SPM

2009-03-15T13:37:00.008+08:00

My SPM results....(drum rolls)

6 A1s, 1 A2 and 4 B3s!!!

It's not 14 A1s (Like Gai) but it's alright. At least I didn't fail Add Math or BM which means I don't have to take Finite Maths or BM in college.
Going back to high school for the results was fun. I got to meet all my ex-schoolmates again. And we can definitely feel 'the vibe' when we waited for it. Some teachers even cried. Anyway, I just wanna say how proud I am of my friends, especially Gai, Ding, Joolz and Kyeng. They all got straight A's!! I said it before, I'm gonna say it again, Gai got 14 A1's!! She's the 2nd highest Indian scorer in Malaysia! And she's not from some bestari/boarding school either. She's from our humble, ulu, no-one-will-ever-know SMKBTHO2. Her name's gonna be in the Hall of Fame for a long, long, long....time.

Not My Best Day

2009-03-09T01:38:00.002+08:00

0730: Woke up late for second driving lesson. Drove up to Hulu Langat with instructor. All the way I was still kinda blurr... Learned how to do parking and 3 point turn today. Normally, I won't have to wait long to do parking but because it's a Sunday, I had to wait in line with the others to get a spot for parking. Then this guy cut the line in front of me and as the pushover that I am, I didn't do anything. Not even honk..but my instructor did. He literally got down the car and scold the poor guy. I was so afraid that all I did was sit in the car with my hands over my ears. After that, I just answer questions with monosyllable answers.

1000: Went to church with sis. We talked about Psalm 67-A Great Commission. I learned that God wants to bless us-all of us. We don't have to earn it. Our purpose in life is to glorify God and enjoy Him forever. May the peoples praise You and all nations glorify You!
Joined a talk called Sex & Sensibility that's on the 15th. I think it's going to help a lot, especially in the marriage and relationships conundrum.

1230: Drove all the way to Pavilion for lunch so that we can go to the National Library to study. What a disappointment that was.
1. The National Library has no proper parking area; we had to park at the Hospital beside.
2. We have to pay RM5 to bring our laptop in. (which we didn't after all cos Alex was too pissed-off with the whole thing that she threw the form we have to fill up for payment.)
3. The books are very disorganized.
4. People there are mostly high school students talking and adults with nothing to do, they read crappy old magazines like 'Wanita' and 'Jelita' that are bound by the library. (Seriously, why would the library want to bind magazines? They should bind more useful stuffs.)

And it's the National Library! What would foreigners say when they see it? What did they say? It looks pretty good on the outside with a rotten interior. Look at the website and compare it with the actual thing. You'll know what I mean.

Making A Difference

2009-03-08T00:34:00.005+08:00

Watched Slumdog Millionaire today with my mum and sis. Lots of Indian supporters at the cinema. It's the first time ever I felt like we're the only Chinese there and we're not in Malaysia anymore. At first, I thought it'll be some common Bollywood film which involves the main actress dancing around some (incidently there) tree. The guy and his 'geng' will woo the girl and her 'geng' with singing and dancing. Yeah, that's Bollywood alright!

But no, the movie is very real. It depicts real life scenes from Mumbai with actors facing real life situations similar to their characters. The plot shows how a typical life is in India with the caste system. It makes the audience think. Basically, it changed how I see the world. I feel lucky to be born here with a real family and great friends. I now know why God put me here. We complaint almost on a daily basis about our job, our life, our studies. What we don't realize is that people in places like India, Africa, Iraq or even the sidestreet beggar outside your house don't even have a chance to complaint. Often, we are too self-absorbed to realize that the world does not revolve around us.

I've been worrying about SPM results these few days but I don't anymore because I know it's no use worrying. Why would I wanna worry about these tedious things when God has it all planned out? It's not like worries will change it. That is why I want to make a difference. I want to help, even in the smallest of ways. I've decided to sponsor a child through World Vision. I just have to send RM50 per month to them and they'll take care of everything else. It's that easy! I have an allowance more than enough and I work. I'm pretty sure I'll survive without and extra RM50 a month. On the other hand, that single most important 50 ringgit bill will help a child in food, education, living.

Now I know why Slumdog Millionaire won the Best Movie in the Academy Awards. It's real. It may not be pretty, but it's real...it's everyday life in the world. I don't hope for you guys to join a missionary to war or something like that but at least try not to think life as what it is now. Think of the bigger picture and know that each of us is but a small dot in it.

Day 5 without tech

2009-03-05T01:33:00.000+08:00

Today is the final day! I’m so happy I can finally watch my ‘Ouran’ and text my friends. Yesterday was my best friend’s birthday and I couldn’t even wish him. I felt so bad! I just e-mailed him and said I was sorry. I can’t take showering in cold water anymore! Thank heavens today is the last day!

This week actually taught me a lot of things. I can’t believe how much we are dependent on technologies these days. It’s surprising and disturbing to realize that because if we depend on it too much, what happens when it doesn’t work anymore? Hurricane Katrina taught us exactly this. When the connections in Gulf Coast were down, the citizens were desperate for any form of line to the world. Okay, let’s say technologies will never fail us, but we still face the risk of virus spreading through the entire world in the matter of minutes. A terrorist can easily take over everything.

I also learned that without technologies distracting me all the time, I can actually do more work. I’m more focused, therefore productive. If this experiment was to be held for a whole month, I might have changed the amount of technologies I use daily. However, since it’s such a short period of time, I have no inclination to change but it definitely has change how I think of technologies. I won’t take it for granted anymore. I learn to listen more to other people by not constantly occupying myself with technologies. I thank you for that!

Day 4 without tech

2009-03-04T00:10:00.003+08:00

Had my first driving lesson today!! It was quite fun…and exciting that I just couldn’t help smiling the whole time I drove. This doesn’t count as breaking the rules, right? I mean, I drove myself and all but it’s part of learning.

When I came back, read a little ‘Pride and Prejudice’ then I slept for an hour. I’ve been sleeping a lot lately. Just didn’t have the initiative to start a new hobby or exercise. I’ve been telling myself I need to do some exercise but between work, college and assignments, I can’t seem to fit some time to exercise. Maybe I should quit my job and spend more ‘me time’.

My laundry is piling up. I actually piled all of my laundry for the past few days so that I can wash them all at once tomorrow. It’s just easier that way than to wash them everyday. I don’t think I broke any rules today unless you consider taking a glimpse at ‘The Dark Knight’ when my sister was watching. I just realized yesterday that I’m not even supposed to listen to the radio. Except, of course, if it’s someone else listening to it and I just happened to be in the same room.

Tomorrow is the final day. I sure hope I won’t break any more rules than I already had.

Day 3 without tech

2009-03-03T00:58:00.002+08:00

I went to campus today and the first thing my friend, Dhinesh told me was, “I give up.”
“Give what up?” I asked.
“The week without tech thing.”
“Why?”
“I couldn’t take it anymore. I went online yesterday and the day before that. It’s just so hard.”

One question went through my mind at that moment. What has happened to our generation of youth? No offence, but it’s only day 3 and honestly, I’ve broken a couple of rules too. I can understand him because I face the same temptations and when I say youth, I include myself in that category too.

I know kids and youth these days are pretty dependent on technologies but I didn’t know it was this bad. I know for a fact that kids now are playing with Playstations, Xboxes and can’t survive a day without watching ‘Ben 10’ while kids my time only plays with Barbie dolls, Tamiya cars and watches ‘Dragon Ball’ and ‘Pokemon’. Teaching at Kumon has taught me one valuable thing; kids these days are spoiled! Even my 8-year old cousin has a Nokia handphone more expensive that mine. Youth nowadays wants the best in everything; they compare their handphones, laptops and cars with their friends. They get bored easily like changing phones every month because it’s not ‘the best’ in the market.

It’s not that I don’t depend on technologies, I do. To prove my point, I have a confession to make. I watched ‘Mulan’ today on the telly. My friend texted me that it’s on and I immediately switched it on. It’s breaking the rules but it’s only like my favourite movie ever since I was 10. I get tempted sometimes but I still know my priorities. I can survive 5 days without technologies. It just depends on whether I want to. I may get tempted sometimes but I know I can say no to tech.

Day 2 without tech

2009-03-01T23:31:00.003+08:00

-Continue from last post-

So far, I haven’t broken any set of rules. Washed my clothes yesterday by hand and haven’t had any access to the internet except for e-mail and college purposes. I’m getting sick of showering with cold water, thought. I was really tempted to switch on the water heater but didn’t. It’s just 5 days, I will survive.

Okay, I broke some rules today. I watched a music video clip with my friend on her laptop. Couldn’t help it, I was bored out from having to wait two hours between classes. The only entertainment I can find is reading my book, ‘Lolita’ and writing in my diary. Lolita is somewhat hard to understand because of the French words and English words from the Victorian era (I think). Plus, my friend played music on her laptop and technically, I’m listening to it. If we look at this logically, I didn’t ask her to play them, right? However, I did like the songs and even asked her to Bluetooth them to my phone.

When the rules say that I can’t use the mobile except for emergencies, I’m expecting calling my mum to pick me up from the LRT station as an emergency. So far, that’s the only thing I use my phone for and as an alarm clock to wake me up in the morning. I realized that I wear my clothes a couple of times more than usual to avoid having to wash them so often. It’s just that between balancing my time for college, travelling and work, I really can’t find much time to do the laundry.

I did something crazy today. I actually walked home which is 1km away from my work place (Kumon centre) after work at 9.30pm. Which is pretty crazy in my context because I usually asks my mum to pick me up but seeing as I can’t ride anyone’s car unless for long distance, I took up the challenge. It’s not like my neighbourhood is dangerous or anything but there have been cases of robbery and kidnapping. Well, not after the security guards beef up the patrols.

Anyway, I was walking home and I saw this African American man walking ahead of me. No offence, but at that time, any man of any race would’ve been suspicious to me. Fortunately, there were some people around us standing outside their porch. Nothing happened but I was so freaked out that time I prayed and sang worship songs the entire way home. I know, I’m a sacredly cat.